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Back to School Shhhhhiiiz

2009-06-08T12:46:00.000+08:00

..means everyday allowance, getting to spend everyday with Martin, and.. unfortunately, classes. And school works.

But what the hell, I have already experienced the worst school works (aka PLATES) and the worst school life (aka FINE ARTS LIFE), so I'm not really complaining. What is 5 nose-bleeding, brain-shrinking and life-draining paper work in a semester compared to WEEKLY money-draining, brain-shrinking, brain-rusting, sleep-depriving PLATES/ARTWORKS? Peace. HAHA. But really, I'm not saying that taking the Fine Arts program means the same to everyone. It's just that... I wasn't born to be an artist. :|

It's been a year since I decided to leave my Fine Arts life behind and take what I really want to take. It's been a year - and I definitely don't have even the littlest of regret.

The life I've chosen is the life I've always wanted, so I can't complain. :) "Great" is an understatement if I were to describe my life in UP as a Linguistics major, really. Classes, schedule, environment, habits, tambayan moments, FRIENDS -- GRABE. HAHA. Yun na lang. I can't find the perfect adjective. :p I know I still have a tougher life to face in the next years, but hey, who says I'm the kind of person who would always find the easiest, and not the best, way out? I'm already in the best university, why not make my best out of it? Even if it means taking, failing and retaking the bloody Math 17 (which is, by the way, not required in our program), I'll endure. :p MAN. I have to improve my Math. It's my ULTIMATE waterloo.

So. School life, come to mama. :))

On WTF.

2009-05-24T08:08:00.000+08:00

I hate, no, LOATHE secrets and lies.

Lying about something for a "greater" image is so pathetic because once that LIE is discovered, you become much much MUCH less of the person that you were.

I would rather be looked down on for something that I really am than be looked up to for something that I am not.

ORANGE ISKRAMBOL - WHAT?!

2009-05-17T19:04:00.000+08:00

So, earlier this evening, I decided to take all the devils off my system muna and attend the 7pm Holy Mass. Alone. :( I invited Jared to come with me but he didn't answer. :( ANYWAY. The reason why I had the will to blog tonight is.. *drumrolls* I JUST SAW AN ORANGE ICE SCRAMBLE (or iskrambol, as well know it.) BEING SOLD JUST OUTSIDE THE CHURCH. HAHAHA. YES, it's a big deal for me. I've been wondering long enough why it's always PINK. It's pink anywhere. Even the pictures over the internet are PINK. So I asked Kuya Vendor, and he answered me naman.

ME: Kuya, bakit yellow? Haha. *sabay smile*
KUYA: Hehe hinde, orange yan. *sabay smile*

Yes, his answer is clear naman right? :)) Sorry naman, the street light was yellow, so I thought it was yellow. HAHA.

Well, another milestone for me. :p

ANYWAY. Out of boredom, I reread my blog entries here in Multiply, and if someone who isn't so close to me would read it, he/she would think that I have a boyfriend named Niko Martin/ Martin Niko. Kasiii, I haven't blogged yet (well, here in Multiply, at least) that Niko and I have broken up na. :| So I've decided.. to clear things up here. But I'm sure most of you know about it already. Or not? Hahaha. But the REAL story behind it.. Well, I think I'm ready to talk about it na, so don't hesitate to ask me na lang. In person. :p

Okay. This is too long. Good night, world. :)

When Shizz Strikes

2009-05-13T13:11:00.000+08:00

Yo yo yo. :))

Nah, I haven't gone black yet. WHAT. RACIST MUCH. I KID, I KID! :))

So our landline has gone crazy for 3 days now. No hang tone. But there is dial tone. My mom says she paid the bills already. So what the hell is wrong with our landline?! No landline means no internetzzz (it's slow so it's netzzz). My eyes are almost bulging out of their sockets now because I watch TV the whole day (yes, TV makes my eyes more stressed than the PC) and my thumb is almost sore from texting. I swear it's a centimeter bigger nao.

JEEZES. I can't play PET SOCIETY IN THIS DAMNED COMPUTER!!! Internet cafe sucks, for all feckles sake! This net cafe is using an old version of Firefox and Java and Adobe Flash player so I can't play Pet Soc!

ANYWAY. Tin's going to visit me tomorrow so I expect it's so going to be a goody good good day tomorrow. ;))

Adios.

Mothers' Day Randomness

2009-05-10T10:15:00.000+08:00

Last night was.. amazing.

..because I slept in my mom's room. AC on full blast, me chilling under a thick blanket, nice dim light to set the mood, Cream-O Deluxe to pamper my sweet tooth, and Tin.. Tin on the other end of the phone line until we woke up at around 7am. :)) And mini-daldalan in the middle of the dawn pag naaalimpungatan kami pareho. :))

And now, with the mothers' day randomness:

I greeted my mame through text when I woke up (she's in Bulacan kasi with dade) and she sent me a heart-warming reply. I'm her most precious prize daw for being a mother. :D Oha oha.
Someone is fast becoming an inspiration. AS IN. Like when I read his blogs, I feel like I want to work on my ultimate aspiration na.. as in NOW NA.
Should I take Math 17 na this coming sem? Hmm. I have to do something about my waterloo na talaga.
I'm such a PARANOID and a MASOCHIST. Why do I keep looking at things that I know would only hurt me?
OC attack first thing in the morning. Or am I becoming an OC for real? I feel this like everyday na. The dog's stray hair everywhere, dirty dishes on the sink (c/o my brother), things in inappropriate places, LOADS of unnecessary things all over the house -- these are only some of the stuff that annoy me recently.
Jai Ho is my current LSS. I play it like 2947823957 times a day.

Blahh.

Because I Suddenly Felt The Need To Blog

2008-11-04T10:30:00.000+08:00

I will blog. Bullet blog, that is.

My mom just turned 47 years old yesterday, and I'm proud to say that she doesn't look 47 at all. We had a little family dinner last night, and I'm ultimately happy about it. Really, we rarely eat together as a whole family because teh brother is always missing in action, but yesterday was great. It's nice to see my family intact and happy despite everything. :)
My prof in Fil40 accidentally gave me a mark of INCOMPLETE for his subject. I emailed him about it because I know I submitted everything. It turned out that he overlooked something and that my grade is actually 1.0 beybeh! :D :D :D
Speaking of grades, I just computed my General Weighted Average since I already have all my grades. And my GWA is.. *drumrolls* SECRET! =)))
CRS gave me 8 units (2 GEs and 1 PE) in the online enlistment. Which means I will have to to UP (University of Pila) tomorrow and fall in ~~hell~~ line in Dept of Linguistics for Lingg 115, Dept of European Languages for Span 12-13, and Dept Whatever for one General Education subject. Yeps, I don't have ALL my majors yet. Great right? Not to mention the three 3248678945 kilometer lines that I'll have to experience. Oops, pre-advising and post-advising and validation and enrollment lines pa pala. GRR. I LOVE YOU CRS! X((((
Teh boyfriend is missing. WRONG. Meh is missin teh boyfriend. So badly. :(
Black nail polish is wearing out. :|
Sims is love. :D
2nd sem starts on Friday (Nov. 7) I'm totally alright about it. No complaints.

Err. Sorry.

PLUG: LOVEDECOY.NET :p

:)

Worried To Death

2008-10-16T17:27:00.003+08:00

I don't know anymore.

I have so many things in my mind. So many things t0 worry about. Academics. Family. And.. I can't even start to think about it. It just can't be.

Acads. Well, this is something that I shouldn't be worried about. I wouldn't fail, of course. But I knew I did not give my major subject my best shot, and it reflected in my exam results. I'm still waiting for the grade. Even if it's low, I would not be thrown out of the department. But then, I could have done something about it. If only I took it seriously. But I didn't.

My other subjects are fine. No, they are great. My major subject is the only problem.

Family. It's a secret, but I will blog about it eventually. It just needs time to ripen. I can't do anything about it anymore if it leaks or if they find out that I know something about it. Of course I do.

And the unthinkable... It can't be. And I know and hope and desperately pray that it won't happen...

I didn't know I would have these things to worry about. It pains me. It's almost killing me. I really hope they would be solved soon. SOON. I would know the outcome of these problems over the weekend, except the family stuff.

Please God.. Please help me.. Please.. :'(

For The Meantime..

2008-10-15T11:15:00.002+08:00

..I guess I'll have to satisfy myself with blogger, at least until my blog is up (bandwidth limit exceeded) or until I finally put up my own domain. :(

Someone already offered to give me either a domain or web hosting. I think I'll go for the hosting; domain is much cheaper than hosting. But if someone offers me a free domain, that would be another story. :D :D :D

Anyway, Niko made a surprise visit yesterday. He arrived with my brother. Actually, Jet came first and told me, "I have something for you." I thought it was my nephew Justin so I ran to the door. But it was Niko! LOL. Better, I said to myself. The best surprise in the world. :)

And so my laundry day became a love day. WAT. LOL. HAHA.

Laters.

A Surprisingly Happy Day!

2008-07-05T23:51:00.002+08:00

It's a happy happy day!

Niko dropped by to fetch me so I could accompany him to the dentist. Today was supposed to be his tooth extraction day. But it was re-scheduled, so we went to his house instead. His parents were there. Apparently, they had plans, so we just got into it. We went to Greenbelt to attend mass and have dinner. Happy happy daaaay! :D I really had fun! ^^

And yeah, I lost my ID for some reasons I cannot explain. I thought it was still in my hands while Niko walked me home from their car, but when I got home, I realized it was gone. O_O I was really panicking when 2 kids knocked on our door and handed back my ID! YES! Thank GOOOOD.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY NIKO! :D

Who Doesn't Love Photography?

2008-07-05T22:27:00.002+08:00

Let me rephrase the question: WHO DOES NOT WANT A DIGITAL CAMERA?

I have always been into photography since I entered college with my first program (fine arts). I had always looked forward to our 3rd year when I was supposed to have my own Digital SLR because of a photography class. And now, since I transferred to another program in another school, my dream of having my own DSLR came crashing down into pieces. Oh life.

But hey, I'm not giving up photography. I'm actually currently saving up so I can buy my own digital camera. I don't care if it is an SLR or not, I just want to have the best digital camera! And so I've been reading about it all over the net for tips and recommendations. You know, I don't want to go around buying one and end up regretting it simply because it's not the one I need. Yep, you've read right. Not all digital cameras are specialized for general use. There are some digital cameras which are best in travel photos, sports, quick capture, and such. So if you want the best camera around for your specific need/interest, you won't be needing a review site which only gives you pros and cons. What you will need is a recommendation site which gives you a SPECIFIC camera to buy. Gets?

Argh. I want a digital camera now! :))

Waiting

2008-07-04T23:36:00.003+08:00

Bakit ba trip na trip akong paghintayin? :| Bakit ba trip na trip akong sadista-hin? Dahil lagi na lang ako nagcconcede? Dahil lagi na lang ako sunod nang sunod? Dahil gusto ko? Ayoko.

I just want to feel special.

Trying Hard

2008-07-03T21:43:00.003+08:00

I want to be the best girlfriend in the world, someone who isn't too protective nor too apathetic. Someone who isn't too possessive. Someone who would be willingly loved back by his boy.

I am in love. I am in a relationship with the person I love most. What I never realized before is that being with that one person you love most doesn't equate to satisfaction. No, it's not that I'm in a one-way relationship (although sometimes I think I am), but there something inside me that makes me want more... I know it's wrong to assume that he will do this and that for me, but it just comes out naturally.

I know I've told him many times that it would be "alright" for me if he would choose to be with his friends on a Friday afternoon (even if that's the only chance we have to meet), but see, it is not. I just said that it is alright because I want him to see that I am trying to adjust to his new attitude (that he is not just into me anymore) and that I'm not trying to take him away from his "social life". But deep inside I'm wishing that he wouldn't choose his friends over me, because I'm so used to seeing him almost everyday, and now that I've transferred to another school, it's only on Fridays that I get to go to his school (because that's the only day he has time).

I know I've told him many times that I'm alright with our "setup" (a very long story), after all, I'm the one asking the favor of staying together because I'm not yet ready for a break up. But there's always this monster inside me that wants him to text me often, ask me if I'm alright, want to be with me, hug me, kiss me, voluntarily. If you get what I'm saying. Because that something that I want loses its sense if I ask him for it. It's like, I want him to hug me, but if I ask him to hug me, it wouldn't just feel special anymore. :'c

To make a very long story short, I just want to have the typical boyfriend who makes me feel special. I want to feel special, because I don't feel special anymore. Deep inside me, I know I want him to make me feel special, but in the end, I just become frustrated because he won't. Not because he can't, but he just don't see me as special anymore.

This is killing me. He's right, we only have two choices: stay together or stay apart. Of course, I'd rather us stay together and be back to the sweet old days. I really love him, but it's killing me that these things are happening to me now. We are trying to make things work out. I really hope it would. Because I know it would take me a very very very long time to move on completely. I might never be able to.

But if we weren't really for each other (which I believe isn't true), I wish I'd be able to move on. I wish time would move fast forward to the time when I'm not in love with him anymore. I might as well die.

I'm hanging on.

On Coffee Grinders

2008-07-02T18:36:00.002+08:00

The rainy season is finally here! ^_^ Cold mornings and rainy afternoons just make me want to sit down, read a good book and have a cup of coffee. Oh dear, I'm a BIG BIG fan of coffee! Actually, even if the weather is kinda humid, I'd still prefer coffee over anything. I'm a certified addict!

That's why I think it would be nice if I would have some coffee grinders of different kinds so I can grind the coffee beans myself. I know coffee beans are sold in the groceries, and it would be really great if I have coffee grinders of my own so I can grind the coffee beans just the way I want it to be.

And by the way, do you know that there are many kinds of coffee grinders? I read all about it over the net and it really interests me, makes me really want to have one! For a coffee addict like me, it would be a great joy to have the best one for me. So I strongly urge you to read reviews first so you can get to choose what really fits your needs.

4 HOURS. CMON!

2008-07-01T21:27:00.002+08:00

Earlier, I was stuck outside our hours for 4 FKCUING HOURS because no one was home to open the door and I don't have a copy of the key. Argh. It wasn't fun.

FRESHIE DAY!
So yeah, today is the "Freshie Freebie Day" (or at least that's what I call it) in UP. I got a free bottle of Fab and.. okay I forgot the name of the yummy cookie. And Enervon-C too! :D HAHA. And I finally got a UP lanyard! But it wasn't for free. :/ P100. Oh well. Pwede na rin.

Transferred!

2008-06-30T10:24:00.002+08:00

Classes have started again. I'm happy to say that I finally get my education from the University of the Philippines. :) Yeah, I successfully transferred to another program of my choice which is BA Linguistics. Yehey! :D

On a sad note, Niko thinks that we're so far away from each other, eh hindi naman. :c I always visit him sa UST every Friday so we will have quality time for each other. But then.. he doesn't want to spend time with me sometimes. Or maybe, he does, but he has other things in mind that he is more interested to do. Oh well.

I have to relive this blog. Haha.

Bloggerwave!

2008-06-01T11:09:00.004+08:00

Life is indeed getting more and more expensive these days, especially here in the Philippines. Simple proof is the increased amount of jeepney fare! Cruel, cruel world. This is why everyone, even us who are staying at home, are finding ways to make money out of extra jobs.

Good thing there are websites like Bloggerwave which gives bloggers the opportunity to make money out of their blogs! It's really easy to earn in Bloggerwave: you just have to blog about certain topics, then it is approved by the admin, and then you get paid! It's just as simple as blogging about your dog or your new living set! :) Try it, and you will soon find yourself enjoying the art of blogging.. and earning at the same time!

Mail-eating Dog

2008-05-30T13:23:00.005+08:00

Well, my dog King has been really naughty recently. Just last week, it happened that no one was home to receive the mail from the mailman. What the stupid mailman did was drop the mail - right before our dog! So our dog ripped it into pieces. Great. Maybe he was thinking, "My mom has lots of bills to pay, I'll help her by ripping this into bits!"

What we really need is a quality mail box! We used to have one before, but it was made of wood so you can expect that it's not existing anymore. Haha! So I found this amazing site that provides quality mailboxes not only for residential use but for commercial purposes also! Plus they got a very wide variety of decors to choose from. I strongly encourage you to browse through their site MailBoxIxchange.com so you can see what I'm talking about! :)

And do you know that this website has an affiliate program as well? It's a good way of earning money because they pay you $20 just for signing up. If you want to learn more about it, you can click here! :)

Life is Getting Really Expensive

2008-05-25T15:27:00.002+08:00

Life is getting harder and harder everyday. The cost of living is getting higher, as well as the prices of all our major needs. This is the reason why people depend on credits and loans to help in budgeting.

I found this really great site called BadCreditOffers.com. It is a really helpful resource especially to those who are financially incapable of budgeting. They offer credit cards, mortgages, loans, and resources for people with bad credit. For example, they offer home loans for those who want to secure the future homes of their loved ones. They also have auto loans, credit and debt help, and personal loans for those who want helping hands in paying the bills.

The website lists down all the best companies that offer these loans and arrange them in a way that you can easily compare and pick out the best that suits you and your financial needs.

I strongly recommend browsing through this website especially now that we have a very expensive living cost.

Never Say Goodbye.

2008-05-15T11:56:00.000+08:00

I can't believe wala na si Lola. She passed away last Saturday. :'(

Random Thoughts

2008-05-09T18:49:00.002+08:00

I just took my exam this morning (whatever it is, I'll let you know someday). And it was quite easy than I expected. I still have one more written exam and a series of interviews; I really hope I can pass them all. Or at least, one of them. :/

Random thoughts:

1. My mom and I are going to Fontana tomorrow for an overnight swimming with her friends. YEHEY!

2. I love Niko. More than ever. :)

3. I really wish I can drive well!

Seriously, I usually find myself staring at the screen of my WordPress dashboard. I find myself somehow more limited in blogging at my other site because of the number of visitors. I feel like they are actually expecting bloggers like me to write something sensible, something that they can relate to. But it's not really my thing. I just want to express my daily thoughts without boring anyone. So I find blogging more comfy here in blogger because I rarely have visitors. :))

Anyhoo. I want a new layout. But I'm so tamad. Ugh.

Decision Made, Finally.

2008-04-23T12:51:00.004+08:00

And so Sam's debut went out well for us. :) Niko actually liked the way I looked!

So yeah. Yesterday, Niko and I spend the whole day together watching Saw 1, 2 and 3. I can't wait for the 4th installment! It's bloody and disgusting, but it has a story which some gore movies lack. Haha. So that's what I've been doing for the past days and I'll be doing for the days to come, movie marathon.

Life has been pretty rocky for me these days, but I'm happy. I've finally decided to do something that I should have decided on a year ago. And this time, I know it's right and it's what I really want. I already talked to the most important persons in my life (my mom, Niko, and best friends) about my issue and they were all there to support me. Ah, God is good! Good luck to me. I really really hope and pray that everything will turn out fine. :)

Whatever Day.

2008-04-19T22:10:00.001+08:00

What a frraakked up day. I hate today and everything that happened today. The only good thing that happened today is that I was able to start making my debut invitation. But gahh, I wasn't even able to finish it, for heaven's sake!

I hope tomorrow's going to be better. I'm going to Sam's debut party with Niko. Good luck to me.

Ugh, Sorry.

2008-04-18T21:20:00.003+08:00

It's been a while, I'm sorry I haven't been updating this. I should and I would continue to keep this site up so I could still earn online. :D

Today marks the 51st month that Niko and I have been together. Quite some time huh. Yeah. ^_^ We didn't really have any plans for today because he had cotillion practice for our friend's debut on Sunday, so I thought it's going to take the whole day. He called around 6:00 PM to tell me that the practice is over. So we went to Glorietta to have dinner together (pizza at Yellow Cab) and to spend some time with each other. Although I must admit that this day didn't become special as I hoped. :/ Oh well. At least we were able to see each other today.

So yeah. I'm off now. My mom is such a nagger. I hate it.

SPEECHLESS!

2008-03-13T15:42:00.002+08:00

3 school days left.

plus..

THIS.

In Search for the Best Online Casino?

2008-03-13T10:44:00.003+08:00

Are you aware that online casino is one of the most searched keywords in most search engines? It's because these online casinos give a whole lot of entertainment to those who are into it. Actually, the people who play casino online are those who doesn't have time or enough money to play in casinos. But who cares? The entertainment and the thrill is still the same, plus there is a bonus of "comfort".

Back to online casino as one of the most searched keyword. When you search for it in search engines, the first on the list doesn't mean (definitely) that it's the best among all the online casinos. Some people mistaken the first to be the best that's why they just end up disappointed after playing. That is where online-casino-list.com comes in the scene. It is a review site that gives the viewer an idea on what to expect on an online casino. They actually have a top list not only according to them but also according to the players' votes! Yes, that's right. They have a list of Best Online Casinos by Player Votes, Most Voted for US Online Casinos, and other useful list that will guide you through and lead you to the site that you will really enjoy.

In reviewing an online casino, they give info in details, meaning, when you read it, you will already have the idea if this certain online casino is your type or not. They also include the editor's rating, player's opinion, game details, trust scores, and others.

If I were one of those who play online casinos, online-casino-list.com is definitely the review site for me. Absolutely hassle free!

Going Nuts? I Hope Not.

2008-03-09T17:23:00.003+08:00

I'm already working on my finals plates, and all of them are draining all the sanity in me.

Di bale.. just 7 school days left, and 4 plates left. I hope I'll be able to finish all of them this week so I won't have anything to worry about anymore on the last week of the sem.

I can't wait for summer!

My head has it's own beating. Argh. Aheytit. (.__.)

I'm going to heaven! x)

2008-03-05T10:10:00.002+08:00

10 MORE DAYS and I'm off to heaven. LOL. Heaven=VACATIOOOON! *jumps*

But before I go to my heaven, I must go through hell first. The finals plates are waiting to be done.. Most of them should be submitted by next week. Meaning, on theweek after next, no more plates.. FINALLY! Just a few more days of no (or little) sleep, just a few more sacrifices. I just can't wait to experience again the feeling of being able to sleep for as long as I want. x)

Anyway. I just completed my folk dance this morning (I was marked incomplete last semester) and softball (my current PE class) yesterday. Later, I'll be working on my final plate in perspective and some late plates in anatomy. Then my final typography plate tomorrow. Oh, joy. :) This means no sleep again tonight. (10 days left nika, just 10 days.)

I'm doing a Captain Underpants book cover for my final plate in typography. I'm excited to work on it.. I just LOVE captain underpants! Well if you don't know him.. google it. :))

Alright. I'm off now to do my stuff. :) I'll be visiting your sites soon (when is soon?). :D

"My pain and all the troubles caused, no matter how long,
I believe that there's hope buried beneath it all.."

All That Blah-ness

2008-02-27T16:22:00.004+08:00

Yes, a century it has been! HAHA.

I don't know if LIFE reads my blog, but some things are telling me it does.

Right after I posted my Oh LOL blog entry (which contains a story about how unbusy -if there's such word- I was), I suddenly became busy. RIGHT AFTER. Not a day after. O_O Someone suddenly told me about something that we had to do, and that's it; that was my portal to hell.

But I don't want to talk about that. And I don't want to talk about anything else. I WANT TO DO MY PLATES. I know you're all sick hearing (or reading) that word (I told you, it's the most horrible thing -or word, in your case- you'll ever encounter), but that is where my life is revolving now and for the following 3 years of my college life. I'm sick of it too, but I have no choice but to work on them, otherwise I won't graduate. O_O

Don't get me wrong. I'm not into the shit-i-want-to-shift-programs-now saga anymore. I'm more into the oh-god-more-plates-i-hate-it-but-i-love-my-program-now-i-hafta-do-this drama now, if you get what I mean.

FLASHREPORT: (note: NOT sponsored)
I discovered a website: http://atunnel.com/
I'm telling you, this is VERY useful especially if you are using useless computers (read: computers where you can't browse the whole of the net because the authorities blocked a couple of sites like youtube.com, friendster.com, etc. e.g. computers inside the UST Library). Haha. I discovered this because of my ka-chismosahan (nakikibasa sa tinatype ng katabi. :)) )

There. Long post. No.

Bow.

P.S.
THANKS to those who wished me a happy valentines day (especially to those who gave me gifts), and to those who answered my online questionnaire. I owe you! :*

HELP!

2008-02-21T16:23:00.002+08:00

Remember the concept paper in Filipino and that survey thing I mentioned in my previous blog entry? Here it is. PLEASE PLEASE take a minute or two to answer the questionnaire:

http://talatanungan.blogspot.com

AND PLEASE DO SPREAD THE WORD. Especially to those you know who has experienced purchasing stuff online. PLEASE PLEASE. :)

I'M SICK.

2008-02-16T23:01:00.003+08:00

I SWEAR I ATTEMPTED TO WRITE A BLOG POST, BUT MY COMPUTER KEPT RESTARTING.

Okay, that was a lie.

But the first statement is true! Swear. Hahaha. I always open this create a new post page every day I connect to the internet, but unfortunately, no words have been coming out of my fingertips lately. Maybe it's because.. ah, I don't know. :)) Magdadahilan pa e.

ANYWAY.

I have been working on a concept paper in Filipino since last week, and I am in NEED of your help! My paper is about the preference of consumers in buying products online(tagalugin mo na lang haha). Once my questionnaire is approved by the professor, I'll be posting here a link where you can answer the survey. :D Please please pleaaaase. :* *beautiful eyes*

ANYWAY (again).

I'm home alone today. My mom and dad went to Tarlac this morning to attend a wedding, and proceeded to Baguio to.. I don't know. Maybe to experience some cold air? Haha. They will be coming home tomorrow. Niko went to Baguio, too. Yesterday (Friday) and he's on his way home now. Great. Iniwan nila ako. :(((( Now I have to deal with my dog alone. No one's going to feed him. I'm NOT feeding him because he slept on my bed last night. hmp.

I'm so random today. I'm sick (physically.) I'm sick (mentally). I'm slightly sick (emotionally.) I'm sick (psychologically.) I'm sick.

I'm sick.

Did I say I'm sick?

Oh LOL.

2008-02-11T21:36:00.000+08:00

NOTE: This may look like a long post but it is not so read!~ HAHAHA.

So I have not been busy for the past week. It's a miracle! And that's the reason why I was not able to update for more than a week. I've been busy doing stuff that I enjoy like The Sims 2, sleeping, eating.. And the likes. =))

How's life? Mine is great. Less problems, less pressure, less plates. More time to relax, more time with Niko, more of Niko (haha), more sleep, more food! In short, I'm okay with my life right now (maybe because it's the year of the rat and my high school friends say I look like one LOL). I'm actually surprised that these are all happening to think that the final exams are approaching. YES. Only 4 weeks left before the vacation! YES YES YES YEEEES. Okay stop.

Oh, some have been asking me what the hell PLATES are. Well, according to my own dictionary.. PLATES are the most hideous things you can ever hear (together with the word DEADLINE) if you are a student of Fine Arts. They are the SOLE reason why you only get to sleep at least 0 hours a night. They make you cry in the middle of the night. They are known for their amazing power of draining all the patience in your system. HAHAHA.

Basically, "plate" is a Fine Arts and Architecture jargon pertaining to artworks or drawings that are to be submitted for grading. It is also commonly used by Engineering students in the same context (Yes, they do have drawings too. Mechanical drawing.)

Bow.

Ay, wait..

BELATED HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

HAPPY VALENTINES!

And congrats to Cindy for getting hosted!

And thanks to Naomi for her gift! :D And to Moira too for her gift!

And to the persons who reminded me that I should update HAHA.

Okay. So many announcements. Off.

An Award.. Can You Believe It?

2008-02-03T16:40:00.000+08:00

An award!
Thanks to Moira for this award. Flattered naman ako.
This is the first award for my blog. :p
Sana may kasunod pa hahahahaha.

This 5-Star Blog Award is given to a blogger whose blog is of highest classification.
A blog of excellence in the following criteria:
- content, design and style, informative and accomodating -

And so I pass this award to the following amazing bloggers:
Arianne, Char, Sandra, Ate Sheryl and Ate Ychel!

Anywayy..

I'm back to reality. Haha. Meaning, I'm back to making plates. I HAVE to. I have 3 of them waiting for me, and all of them are to be submitted this week. Kaya ko to. :)) Kaya ko naman talaga eh. I submit my plates on time naman no matter how bad(haha) I procrastinate. It's just that I feel so tired. But there's no room for complaints because this is the life that I chose. I don't complain that much na nga about my works compared last semester (last sem, I would cry to my mom and tell her how much I want to shift), because I realized that it is I who chose this and not my parents nor anybody else. So why complain? After all, I'm enjoying my course now, now that I have Niko and friends and the belief that I can do what other fine arts students can do. :)) The last that I mentioned, of course, is just something to boost my confidence. Haha. LOL.

Alright. Paalam. x))

A Beautiful Sunset

2008-02-01T22:33:00.000+08:00

2 weeks after our 4th anniversary, our plans of watching the sunset together and eating pizza finally came true! :)

Right after we were dismissed from our classes, Niko and I went to MOA to watch the sunset. It was a beautiful day; the sky was blue with only a few clouds. :) THE SUNSET WAS VERY BEAUTIFUL. And so we made our dream of watching the sunset together come true.. It feels so good to see something so beautiful with your special someone.. :)

More pictures on my multiply. Add me if you wish to. :)

Thursday Is The Day

2008-01-31T15:36:00.000+08:00

..of rest. :))

I don't have classes on Thursdays, but that doesn't assure me of a day of relaxation. On Thursdays, I work on my plates. The only good things that Thursdays bring to me are the extended hours of sleep and the comfort of home. HAHA. ano daw? Meaning, I don't have to go anywhere. :))

Anyway. Lots of thanks to those who posted comments on my previous post. Some even offered to host meeee. :D I was on the verge of leaving Blogger and applying for hosting last night, but then I changed my mind because of a few reasons:

I don't have lots of time to spend on making a site. So if ever I get hosted, my blog will be ugly. :|
I don't update regularly, as you may notice. I post a blog entry only when I find time. Nakakahiya naman sa may-ari.
Nahihiya ako.

Maybe I'll just buy my own domain and a web hosting plan this summer. :) Or maybe find a site that gives away domain and web hosting plans for free. Haha. :))

Sometimes, there are some non-material things that money can buy.. like a domain! HAHA. LOL. Crazy giiirl. :))

On Vacation Rentals

2008-01-31T14:54:00.001+08:00

Have I told you guys that my 18th birthday is coming up on the 4th of May? Yes, it's my debut already! I can't believe how fast time flies. It seems like yesterday when I first went off to high school. :D Anyway, I've been thinking about how to celebrate my special day. I'm considering going out to lunch and movies with a few of my closest friends and family, or maybe go out to Corregidor with Niko. I actually have lots of ideas. But one of these is going out of the country with my family. This would be really nice, but really expensive.

If I have the budget to hold my debut out of town, I should book rentals for vacation homes by April or maybe earlier (since it's summer by then and lots of people would be going out of town). There's this site called Goin2Travel.com where various owners can include their rentals on a list so that travelers can easily browse for rentals and inquire for information about a particular rental. I browsed for rentals myself and I found two beautiful places that I would like to consider. There's Cabo san Lucas vacation homes located in Mexico and Costa Rica vacation rentals (you can click on the links to see more information).

I'm really excited for my debut and I hope it would be a memorable one in a very memorable place. :)

On Real Estates

2008-01-30T20:05:00.000+08:00

I have always dreamed of going and living out of the country. It would be really nice to live somewhere peaceful and away from all the annoying stuff that are continuously bothering me. That's why I'm envious of my relatives who have already gone to the Land of Milk and Honey. Some of them already have their green cards, which means that they are already official citizens of the USA.

While going to the United Stated of America and getting myself a Green Card are not easy tasks, finding a place to stay at and reside in are not easy, either. That is when real estate agents come in the scene. They make life easier for us by showing us where there are available real estates. NationalRelocations.com offer a wide choices of Real Estates in different states like Virginia real estate, Washington real estate, Seattle real estate (where most of my relatives live), and many more.

If I were to migrate to the US soon, I would contact a real estate agent now so finding a place to stay at would not be on my problem list anymore.

Site Stuff

2008-01-28T22:49:00.000+08:00

I blog hopped last night and I realized that I'm so left behind na when it comes to blogging. I signed up in Technorati.com and I couldn't understand a single thing. So what's with technorati? :/ My authority is 17 daw. So what the hell does that mean? And I want to increase my PR too. Hahaha. My current page ranking is 2. And I want more! HAHA. My pink-blush subdomain had a PR of 4. Sayang, the domain expired na.

Anywaaay, as you can see, I have a new layout! Funny how I can still manage to make my blog a new layout when I haven't finished any of my plates yet. This new layout is very simple, black, pink and white without any image (except my picture haha).

Niko's here in our house. We ate lunch together, and right now, we are watching the DVDs that he brought. Ahh. Love. Haha. I'll be working on my plates a little later. And I'm going to finish at least 75% of all the plates that I have to do, even if that means no sleep.

AND OH. I'm thinking about applying for hosting.. or maybe I'll buy a domain instead and find a free web host. I don't know. But I want to have a subdomain/domain again. Others have multiple blogs with their own domains kasi e. And most of my blog friends already have their own domains. Haha. Inggitera. So, what do you think?

What A Week

2008-01-27T13:15:00.000+08:00

This week is probably the most toxic week that I had so far. :c

Since Monday, I didn't attend my classes (except for my PE -softball-, typography and saturday classes) because I became SO disoriented. I lost my screws, maybe? I don't know, really. I did not sleep for 2 straight days just to finish my three-15x20 board-plate in Design and Color. I did not submit my plates in Anatomy. Jeez. This can not happen again. I just can't afford anymore to have a week like this, or else my grades would come crashing down -- something that I would not allow to happen to me.

Could you permit me to get this bad thing out of my head?

~~SOULJA BOY. DIE. GET A GOOD BOOK, DO SOMETHING MEANINGFUL, AND STOP DOING THAT STUPID DANCE. PLEASE.~~

Okay. I just released it. For 2 days, I've been seeing that boy on MYX dancing that stupid dance and even TEACHING the people how to dance the stupid dance! For hell's sake. To his supporters, please excuse me. It's just that I can't take seeing something so horrible like that anymore. 8|

Anyway, I'm so sorry for not updating and visiting your sites and returning your comments. I've been really REALLY busy, and I still am. I don't think I'll be able to visit your sites until next weekend because I have so much to do. A long queue of plates awaits me. But I'll be updating my links.

Bawi ako someday. Hahaha. Promise. :p

Farreys Lamps

2008-01-27T12:16:00.000+08:00

I am a fine arts student, and I have a working place at home where I do my plates. But one thing that pisses me off about my working place is the lighting! I don't have enough lightings. Our living room has 2 lights but the other one is not working my place is not properly lit. My mom is forcing me to use a table lamp that we have here but it's too much -- it's so blinding me!

I am badly in need of lamps. One of the factors that I don't get motivated to do my plates is the lighting thing! So I browsed through the net and found this amazing site that sells lamps -- all kinds of lamps -- at low prices but great qualities. They have table lamps, desk lamps (which are the ones that I probably need), floor lamps, and more! Actually, they have a wide variety of lamps by style, by brand, and by application. Yes, they are making our lives easier by classifying their lamps according to their application, just the right lamp that would fit our needs.

Would I get the right lamp for me soon? I hope so. I have to do my Perspective plate now.

Yay!

2008-01-18T23:44:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 4TH ANNIVERSARY TO ME AND NIKO! ♥

On Online Casino Reviews

2008-01-18T22:28:00.000+08:00

I haven't really tried gambling in an online casino nor have I tried playing in any of the casinos here in the Philippines. But I know what it feels to be so into something and want the best out of that something. Even if there are a million kinds of that "something", you still want the best, and it's really nerve-wracking to search for the best. Well, in the case of online casinos, that's the job of Pro360.com, to provide casino-addict people the info they just need - the best of the best.

Recently, I learned over the net that there are thousands of online casinos! Now I can imagine just how FRUSTRATING it is to find the best ones that are worth your time and money. This is where Pro360.com is good at. They have a list of the top 20 online casinos, the editor's and players' ratings for each corresponding entries, and other useful information that would prove that each entry is really one of the best. Of course, their ultimate purpose, the FULL REVIEW of each online casino, is also provided. I actually checked some of the reviews and they are so detailed!

I really think that all kinds of services offered in the net should have something like this, so we can easily find the best ones and not wasting our time and effort searching.

EXCITEEEED

2008-01-10T11:10:00.000+08:00

8 DAYS LEFT BEFORE OUR 4TH ANNIVERSARY. :D I am just soooo excited!

I'm still not in the mood to do my plates, but I will work on them today because I HAVE to. Tomorrow will be the submission of the plate in Typography, and the other one (DC) will be submitted on the 23th instead of yesterday. O_O

Anyway, I noticed that my mom have been receiving lots of letters saying "insurance", something that never really mattered to me before. But you know, it's hard NOT to notice, especially when letters are popping on our doorsteps, like it's screaming to your face the word insurance. Hahaha. So then I researched over the net to find out what insurances are for, and I also asked my mom as well. So then I learned that insurances make life easier by paying for it monthly or something. Like for example, I signed up for a health insurance, I will pay for a certain amount monthly so it's like I'm already saving up just in case I will have an accident. My mom says that insurance is very important because it will give you the "insurance" that you will be able to get what you need if ever something happens to you unexpectedly.

There are different kinds of insurance like health insurance, life insurance (this really is important if you care about your family and loved ones; you never know when your death will be so it's best to choose the best coverage for the ones that you will be leaving behind), home insurance, and even car insurance, just in case you get in a car accident or something.

When Change is Necessary

2008-01-06T12:22:00.000+08:00

The first week of the year is almost over, and I haven't done anything good yet, even the ones that I need to do. Like my plates. x_x

I have only 3 days left to finish 2 bloody plates (one in typography and one in design and color which I haven't started yet). Oh my. I HAVE TO CHANGE. Or else, the rest of the year would be just like last year, always cramming. I really feel so unmotivated. When I told my classmate yesterday about this feeling, he told me that if I would not be able to finish my typo plate on Monday, I would kiss *YES OMFGG:))* him.. someone in our class HAHA. Someone that we really don't like. HAHAHA. I wouldn't say his name here. =)) Or maybe another him (or her). He is effin gay and we're not in good terms with him and his friends. And I don't want to kiss that gaaaaay. :)) So I was like, "Oh my gosh I have to start working now. I don't wanna do thaaaaaaaat!" Hahaha! LOL. Is this the only way to get motivated? HAHAHA.

Just 12 days left before our 4th anniversary! I'm so EXCITED. YEYYY. *hugs Niko!*

Anyway, I want to tell you about my recent thoughts about my future. On our third year, we're going to have photography classes. I have a plan of buying a camera for myself (a digital SLR camera), that is, if I have already enough money. And of course, a camera tripod is also needed. It is where a camera is placed on so that you will have a better shot, of course, because the stand is sturdy unlike when you use your own hands, you tend to become shaky. Or something like that.

So yea, I've been browsing around the net and found this cool website that sells camera tripods, and not only that, they give the most reasonable price. But the best thing about this site is that it ranks the camera tripods that they sell according to the reviews. Yes, they review each product and ranks them so that the buyers will know which ones are the camera tripods you can buy confidently, those that are "so-so", those that are not recommended at all. Bottom line? They give the buyers the comfort of easily browsing around for the best tripods.

Cleaning Matters

2008-01-06T11:36:00.000+08:00

Our house maid was frustrated yesterday because of all the mess that she had to clean yesterday. It's been ages since she last did a general cleaning in our house, that's why all the dirt piled up and yesterday it looked liked.. gross.

She used our vacuum cleaner to clean all the dirt but she was constantly complaining because ours was not easy to use (it's too short she has to kneel on the floor). What she needed was vacuum cleaner parts so cleaning would be really easy for her. I found this website that sells really amazing vacuum cleaners and parts and accessories. They have upright range, cylinder range, and handheld range and their accessories. I browsed through the parts and accessories and they are really interesting and would really make cleaning easy. For example, they have a matress tool, hard floor tool, and stair tool! A party clean-up kit too! Each model of vacuum cleaners have special accessories. Yes, each vacuum cleaner has a wide variety of models that would suit a person's needs when it comes to cleaning.

See, every accessory aims to make our cleaning life easier. Maybe if our maid were some internet person, she would have insisted on buying these things over the net. :))

Unmotivated.

2008-01-03T13:24:00.000+08:00

The last day of our Christmas vacation has come. I can't believe it. I haven't done everything that I planned to do yet, and I'm so not in the mood to do school stuff. I'll be going to school again tomorrow! :(( Unmotivated, I am.

Today, I have to do my Typography preliminary plate and pencil drawings for my plate in Design and Color. Jeeeez. I'm sooooo not motivated! I thought going out and having fun would get me motivated. Well, I didn't become motivated. I felt worse. I just want to do all the things that I want to do and simply put aside those that I don't really want to do.

Anyway, there's lots of promos that are going on here in the Philippines. A network provider here in the Philippines has an activity going on where a prize is given to the lowest bidder. I didn't know that there is also an activity like that over the net. B4P Auction Sweepstakes is the same. You get Free gifts when you place the lowest UNIQUE bid. Really interesting. It's a actually a reverse-auction, and it is easy to play. It is text-based, meaning in order to play, you have to register and place bid via text-message. It's really easy and fun!

Plus, the prizes are HUGE. Well, not literally. I'm talking about Apple i-Phones, Designer Bags, and even Cash prize! Huge, isn't it? :p Too bad I'm in the Philippines. I don't think non-US residents can participate. Oh well. :))

My Biggest Frustration (well, not really.)

2008-01-02T21:49:00.000+08:00

I've been wanting a lot of stuff lately. Material things. (Look at my wish list haha).

Last night, I made myself frustrated by badly wanting an SLR (Single-lens reflex) Camera, the one that professional photographers use in taking pictures. Not the point-and-shoot one. A good (not great) SLR camera costs around P30,000. Mura pa rin yun compared sa iba. Plus, lenses cost a lot. Plus (haha lots of plus), an SLR uses film rolls which makes it more expensive. There is also a Digital Single-lens reflex which is really more expensive. But yea, I still prefer the automatic one.

Actually, I just don't want it, I NEED it. We'll be having photography classes on our third year and it would be really good to have one even before our photography classes start. Oh dear. I really wish I were rich. :))

Anyhooooo. I went to Glorietta today with Niko to buy a Bainbridge board so I can get started with my prelims plate in Typography. Hayy. I feel so lazy to work on my plates. :c

And oh, this is not a sponsored post. This is my frustration post. HAHAHA. :))

Shopping Cart Software

2008-01-01T16:53:00.000+08:00

It's in Multiply where I first met people who are into online businesses, selling brand new and pre-loved stuff like clothes, shoes, accessories and other stuff. They use their Multiply accounts to sell their stuff. What they do not know is that there is actually an easier and more effective way to build business online.

There is this thing as shopping cart software, a software that lets you build an online business. One of these wonderful softwares is AShopCommerce, an effective eCommerce solution that lets you build an effective online business that can compete with other online businesses. AShopCommerce has already given such amazing service to lots of merchants in the USA. Not only does it offer such service, it also updates the clients with the new stuff that are going on in the ecommerce world and everything they need to now about online businesses.

With AShopCommerce, you'll have a website that will attract clients with the easy-to-use designs (flash and HTML alike), costumer service, search engine where clients can easily browse through your products, and more!

Of course, this is not a free software, but it is free, and it's really worth your money! :)

Goodbye 2007!

2007-12-31T23:15:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

I hope you will all have a great 2008!

Well, since I've already proven myself that new year's resolution is a pure crap to me, I'll just be listing down the things that I want to have for 2008. x)

This 2008, I want to:

1. Receive a beautiful bouquet of flowers.
2. Be happy on my 18th birthday which is on the 4th of May.
3. Have my own digicam! :(
4. Purchase my own domain and web-hosting (or maybe you can give me a domain or webhosting. :p)
5. Learn a new dialect (bisaya or kapampangan)
6. Buy myself something expensive. :p
7. Learn the "art of not procrastinating"
8. Come up with my art portfolio.
9. Have a DSL connection. (I only have an unlimited dial-up connection)
10. Go somewhere far (like Baguio) without my parents.
11. Learn how to drive and get my driver's license.
12. Write something on my planner everyday.
13. MAKE THE MOST OUT OF MY 2008!

Okay, I'm going to update this pag may naisip ako. :))

Btw. I posted my year-ender blog entry on my multiply because it's sooooo long.

So yea. Happy new year again!

2008, I'M GOING TO MAKE YOU MINE! :D

*ate ethel, thank you for correcting me dun sa title part (i typed goodbye 2008 instead of goodbye 2007. :)) haha. :p

Whining

2007-12-30T20:48:00.000+08:00

It's really frustrating when you can't get what you want. I don't understand why I always look at the things that I really want to have when I know I cannot have them. Actually, I CAN have them, it's just that I WON'T have them for now (who knows, maybe never) because of stupid factors like money and SUPPORT from the people who are supposed to give me support.

Another thing that really pisses me off right now is the fact that my mom still wants me to transfer to UP. I heard them talking just a little while ago. Like, WTH?! I'm okay now with the program that I am taking, and I am not whining anymore about my plates and stuff. Why does she have to CONTROL my life? I thought I could choose what I want with regards to my education. Okay, she let me enter UST and take fine arts, only to make me transfer to the school she wants me to study in on my second year? WTF. x(

Oh, dear. I don't want to end my 2007 with this feeling.

Changes

2007-12-29T14:50:00.000+08:00

So I've been hopping through my blog sisters' sites and I realized that SO much have changed in the blogosphere! Many of them already have their own domains and have been hosting others na. I visited some of the affies/link exchanges (I still have my back-up pages) I had when I still had nika.luved.net and some of them have either closed their site or moved.

There have been also LOTS of changes (or add-ons) sa Wordpress! Meron nang log-in/register, tag clouds, the cute calendar beside the title of the post, and other stuff that came up after I left the hosted world. I'm so outdated! But if I were to be hosted again, I'd rather have a very simple site. Sakit lang ng ulo pag maraming stuff e. Hehe. :)

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New Layout

2007-12-28T18:53:00.000+08:00

Teehee! I LOVE my new layout. My 2nd favorite among my layouts for this blog. Although my hubby admits he doesn't like it. x__x

If you don't like it, well, do you have a choice? HAHA. :p

Anyhoo. After making a new layout for my blog, I decided to make a "comeback" to the blogosphere. "Comeback" for me is to renew the blog life that I used to have. Kasi when I was still hosted, I had LOTS of stuff going on in my site. Lots of visitors din. Lots of link. Basta Lots! Haha! So yun, as a start, I visited the sites of some of my old blog sisters. Oh how I miss being hosted! But I think I'll settle in blogger muna.. My life as a fine arts students wouldn't let me consume my time on blogs and online stuff.. Although, I'm having second thoughts about being hosted. Ah basta. Bahala na. Whatever. :))

Link exchanges are open na rin. :)

Anyway, after a month of stress and problems, maybe I deserve some pampering and an out-of-town vacation. Jeez, if stress were money, I would be a millionaire now. Haha! But I learned that booking especially outside the country is not easy because you have to work on some papers here and there. Hassle! Good thing I found easytobook.com and their domain says it all, they offer easy booking to luxurious hotels like those hotels in Prague and hotels in Dublin.

They also offer easy bookings in the hotels in London which reminds me of my friend Irah. She's been there for almost a year now and I'm so missing her! It would also be nice to visit Barcelona, a place I've always wanted to go to! Easytobook.com offers booking there, in the hotels in Barcelona. Also in the hotels in New York! Must be really exciting. Just the thought of it makes me excited. :)

Money Matters

2007-12-27T13:50:00.000+08:00

My grandma's caregiver is constantly asking my mom for cash advance because her family in Hagonoy Bulacan is also in need because of the Christmas season. Well, I can't really blame her. Christmas time is the time of gift giving and preparing delicious meals, but her salary alone won't give her and her family that.

If only she knows CashAdvance1500.com, a website that offers cash advance, payday loans and more in a secure way! The website is also affiliated with other websites that offers the same privilege. Some are Woman’s Pay Day Advance (a great site for women who need quick cash assistance), Additional Earnings, Cash Loans of America, Check Cash Central Cash Advance, and more more more! Plus they have articles that talk about tips and more about loans. Cash advance isn’t a problem with CashAdvance1500.com

I think our government (or a private agency or something) should have an office that offers cash advances and loans for us Filipinos. Or if there already is something like that, it should be made known to us because the salary of employees here in the Philippines is not enough to feed a family.

Okay, I should stop now before I start talking about the politics. :))

Late Christmas Celebration

2007-12-27T12:44:00.000+08:00

Christmas day wasn't a blast for me. It wasn't even good.

But I don't want to talk about that. I don't want to linger on the thought that my Christmas 2007 wasn't the Christmas 2007 that I expected. There are LOOOTS of things to be happy about! Just like YESTERDAY! :D

NIKO and I went to Glorietta and Market!Market! yesterday. We spent the whole day with each other just walking and walking around the mall, looking for some things to buy. But we ended up buying nothing! We had lunch at Kenny Rogers in Glorietta (I was sooo full that I didn't feel good after haha) and then went around Glo to burn the fats LOL. After we realized that we don't have anything to do in Glorietta anymore, we went to Market!Market! OMG. Soooooobrang dami ng tao. Nakakahilo. Went around the place again, ate something (forgot the name) at Red Ribbon, hunted for clothes etc etc etc. We made ourselves tired.. but very very happy! :)

Christmas day may not be good, but the day after that was a blast! I don't have enough reasons to be sad. :p WEEE. Niko, thank you for a happy happy day! ILY. :)

Anyhoo, I've been surfing the internet for Free Screensavers because my computer is being D-U-L-L. My desktop is PLAIN black and believe it or not, I don't have a screensaver, simply because I don't like the pre-installed screensavers on my OS. Good thing I found Free Screensavers! Dear, you got to visit the site. It's got lots of cute screensavers!

Since it's already the christmas season, they have Christmas Screensavers. They are sooooo very nice and cute. Christmas trees, christmas decors, christmas scenes and more! Plus they also have Winter Screensavers to match the Christmas season. How I wish we have winter here in the Philippines. . Of course, when winter is here, fireplaces are also in demand! So they also have Fireplace Screensavers. When I see these screensavers, I feel warm. I don't know how and why, I just do.

You gotta visit this site. It's amazing. :)

So yea, happy holidays everyone. :)

Dream Vacation?

2007-12-25T22:47:00.000+08:00

Have you ever thought of having a sweet escape from the fast-paced world that we are in and take a rest from all the worries that you've been having for ages? Well, cheaperthanhotels.co.uk guarantees you your dream vacation, and much more than that!

Cheaperthanhotels offers reservations from a wide variety of thousands of five-star hotels all over the world like hotels in Gold Coast and hotels in Surfers Paradise which gives you an opportunity to enjoy a luxurious life by the beach. They also take reservations for the hotels in Adelaide in Australia.

If I were to avail a reservation, it would be in one of the Perth hotels, cheap but very accommodating. The beauty of the place is also astounding. There are 3-star hotels, but there are also 2-star hotels where it is cheaper, but the quality of the service is still the same.

No matter what part of the world you are in, you are never too from a dream vacation with CHEAPERTHANHOTELS.CO.UK.

Christmaaaaas

2007-12-24T14:57:00.000+08:00

CHRISTMAS IN A FEW HOURS! :)

Can't wait to taste the fruit salad that I made. :D

QUICK UPDATE:

47th month anniversary last December 18! :D Ice monster with Niko. Same day, our house almost got burnt. :c Thank God the fire was put out even before it spread.

Paskuhan at the University of Santo Tomas last Dec 19. Wonderful fireworks. Parokya ni Edgar rocked the university! Although the event wasn't the paskuhan that I expected. PNE was the only band that performed. The rest of the night was so-so. For me, PNE and the fireworks were the only things that made the Paskuhan exciting. But anyhoo. I spent the paskuhan with Niko, and that made my night memorable. :D

Christmas parties here and there. I'm running out of clothes to wear! :))

Preparing For What Is To Come

2007-12-17T23:06:00.000+08:00

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We have to keep in mind that we have to be prepared for whatever is coming, and we have to have to do it WISELY. With Advantage Term Life, preparation is not a problem.

Top Online Casinos

2007-12-17T22:41:00.000+08:00

Casinos are very in demand nowadays especially in glamorous and luxurious places like Las Vegas, USA. But why go to such places when you can gamble at the comfort of your home? There are countless online casinos in the USA, but only a few make it to the top. And only the best make it to the top.

I personally recommend you to visit www.topusaonlinecasinos.com if you want to make sure that the casino you want to enter is safe and fun. It is a free guide that offers lots of information about good gambling online destinations like bonus rates, payout rates, number of games, graphics, and more more more! If you will look around the site, you will see that there are reviews for each top casino as proof that they really deserve to be on top of the list. There download links of the online casino software that you would choose. They are free and of course, easy to install.

Also provided in the website are online poker room and online sportsbook that will surely trigger your want to gamble online.

A Good Day

2007-12-15T23:22:00.000+08:00

I didn't expect this day to be this happy. :D

For the first time, I saw UST with its beautiful Christmas decors. THRILLING. EXCITING. AMAZING. :D After a long day of making props for the class float for the Paskuhan CFAD Float Presentation, I had one of the happiest moments with my classmates that I can remember. That alone makes me happy. Idagdag pa ang soooobrang gandang scenario sa university. :)

10 days before christmas!

**Wala na raw unli sa globe and smart? haha. go sun!

Blogging with Benefit

2007-12-13T11:42:00.000+08:00

Christmas is near. I can feel Christmas in the air! But I haven’t bought anything to give to my friends and family because I have no money yet. That’s why I looked up to the Internet and find a site that pays bloggers for blog advertising. Ang guess what. I found SMORTY and it works! Smorty connects advertisers to the bloggers. Bloggers simply write about their opinion about the advertiser’s site and products, and if approved by the advertisers, they get paid for blogging!

But Smorty isn’t for bloggers, but for advertisers as well. If you sign up as an advertisier, you can do blog advertising, one of the easiest ways to spread the word about your site or product. Advertise on blogs and you will find your site famous in no time.

I don’t see any reason why a blogger would not join Smorty. You don’t have to do anything crucial or something. You just blog, and get paid for blogging! Now isn’t that easy?

Geez. If I were you, I would sign up now. I have lots of friends, and I want to give them gifts this Christmas because I didn’t give them any last year. Haha! You don’t have to ask why. :))

Sleepyhead... Still.

2007-12-12T14:28:00.000+08:00

I'm typing this blog post for the second time because blogger had an error when I submitted the first one. GREAT.

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I can't believe myself. I actually promised to do my plates right after they are given so I can avoid cramming. I didn't like my life last semester because I was the cramming queen. But look at me now, I'm still the cramming queen, and I don't like it! I don't like it but I am always being tempted by other stuff. For an instance, I slept 3AM already this morning because I finished my plate in Design and Color. Before I did that, I surfed the internet first and did nonsense stuff. Arrghh. Shame on me.

I want to change. For heaven's sake.

Wisdom, Finally?

2007-12-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

I can't eat and talk normally. My wisdom tooth (lower right side) is starting to grow and it's totally excruciating. Why does it hurt so much? Does it mean we have to go through lots of pain to have wisdom? Why am I talking this way? Why ask nonsense questions when you know no one's going to answer? Or do you have an answer?

Maybe my dreams have. It's 12:30 AM. Let's sleep.

It's Monday Again.

2007-12-10T20:30:00.000+08:00

This morning, I had to carry my 3-kilo sculpture plate to school. Sooobrang sakit ng shoulders ko. Plus I have to take it home too! Jeez. What a way to start the week. But anyway, I got 96 for all the stages of making the sculpture. The burden is still worth it. :))

Plates to do:
Typography studies for plate #2
Typography plate # 2
Typography studies for prelims plate
Design and Color plate # 1

HAHA. Konti lang pala? Gagawin ko na nga. :))

Parting Ways with Multiply

2007-12-09T13:16:00.000+08:00

From now on, I won't be cross-blogging with Multiply anymore. Haha. :p So I can post non sensible stuff here. Hehehe. :p

December is here! I can already feel the spirit of Christmas. In fact, November pa lang, I can already feel it. Iba talaga ang Philippines. Philippines has merrier way of celebrating Christmas. Yung iba nga, even if they have to borrow money just to hang something outside their houses and to prepare a delicious meal on Christmas eve, they will. If you will look at it on a positive angle, matutuwa ka talaga. But if you will look at it on a practical angle, it's not that practical anymore. After all, Christmas does not mean luxuries. It means having a prepared heart and soul for the coming of Jesus. :)

Second week of advent na. Bilis talaga. :))

Day of Celebration!

2007-11-28T15:42:00.000+08:00

Today may be considered as one of my most blessed days. :) I think I've been a real good girl for the past month, and God is showering me with His blessings. :)

I AM A DEAN'S LISTER. :D I really didn't expect to be in the list! I thought my GWA is average, but it turned out that my GWA ranked NINE among the whole batch. Seven sections beybehh. GEE! :D SOOOOOO HAPPY. I never really thought about being in the dean's list because of PE (incomplete). But since I'm in the dean's list, it means that PE is not really included in the computation of the GWA. Haha!
I HAVE MY OWN MONEY TODAY. Thousands, I mean. And mind you, I earned it myself! I don't think I've already blogged about a job I got some three weeks ago. My mom's business woman friend (a korean) was looking for someone who could design her business website. And I got the job. YEY! She gave me P7,000.00 for doing it. :D YEY.
I SPENT THE AFTERNOON WITH MY BEBE NIKO! I soooo missed him even if it was only yesterday that we last saw each other. Haha! We went to..
TRINOMA FOR THE FIRST TIME! Call me mababaw or what, but I feel so glad! Haha. Trinoma is just like glorietta and greenbelt and market market. lol. :))
I TREATED NIKO SA YELLOWCAB! For the first time! haha. :)) He's always the one who treats me sa yellowcab because I always don't have money. Now that I have money, bumawi naman ako. :D
I MADE MY PARENTS AND NIKO PROUD TODAY. :) I'm in the dean's list. I'm earning money. And I'm gorgeous. HAHA. LOL.
I got 1.25 for my first plate in Perspective! Yey! Well, this is not something major but still a blessing. ;)

I just hope these blessings will continue come. :) I'll be a good girl. Promise. :))

Anyway. Pictures of today's Trinoma Escapade can viewed here. :)

My Christmas Wishlist. :D

2007-11-25T17:00:00.000+08:00

Thirty days before christmas! YEY! I think I'm human enough to have a christmas wish list. Well, if you really love me, you may give me these things even if it's not christmas anymore. :D

iPod video. Do I have to explain? :))
Digital SLR. With LOOOOOTS of lenses please. :)) I'm going to need this on my third year. We're going to have photography. SLR is okay, but of course digital is always better.
Books. Novels. Any genre. I miiiiiss reading. Ever since my college life started, I don't have a life for my books anymore.
Art books. (Painting, drawing, anatomy for artists, photography, etc.) For reference. And entertainment, too. :)
Tutorial books. (graphic design, adobe stuff, javascript, etc.)
PAGE ONE BOOKS. (graphic design, logo, typo, etc.) OMG I SAW PAGE ONE BOOKS WHEN I WENT TO NBS GLORIETTA THIS AFTERNOON. THEY ARE SO EFFIN COOL. I NEED THEM! (woah, all caps.)
Dress. I feel like wearing one now. :D
Domain with webhosting. (please please please!) Preferably with cPanel and Fantastico. But any host would do. PLEASE. (ugh, desperate. HAHA!)
Paramore CDs (All We Know Is Falling, Riot!). Of course, I still love them even though they are getting more and more popular now. You can even see their videos in myx now! Eww. Boo.
Doll shoes.
Pig and panda stuff. Ohhh. If you really know me, you should know how much I ADORE pigs and pandas. *giggles*

***Special wish: A whole family. ;c I don't think we'll be complete as a family on Christmas day. My kuya is being.. a complete and total moron. x_x

And oh, any gift would do. After all, gifts are supposed to be given voluntarily, not asked for. So why am I writing my wishlist? Wala lang. Baka kasi may mag-magandang loob. HAHAHA!

My Brain Is Not Functioning Well!

2007-11-19T16:17:00.000+08:00

I guess I've gone retarded. Haha!

Two weeks ago marked the end of a three-week semestral break. Nothing big happened on the first week of the second semester. The second week was our college week. For almost five weeks, I had my mind off my studies and plates. I guess my body got so used to not having anything too stressful, that's why I DON'T FEEL LIKE GOING TO SCHOOL ANYMORE. HAHA. Nahh, let's revise that. I don't feel like doing school works anymore. x_x Third week of 2nd sem is here and school works are starting to pile up. Well. Wish me luck. :)) I just hope my new plan (no procrastinating and cramming and such) will work. Haha.

Yesterday (nov18), Niko and I had our 46th month anniversary! That's 3 years and 10 months. We are just SOOOO excited for our fourth anniversary. :D I'm so happy for us. After everything that we've been through, we're still together. Yeeehaaa. :))

I don't really have anything sensible to blog about.. I'm too happy to think about something serious haha! Cheeryo! :D

PS. I am sooooo loving my life right now. Thank you dear God. :)

My Very Own Beyonce Experience.

2007-11-07T17:44:00.000+08:00

I DID NOT GO TO BEYONCE'S CONCERT. Okay.

The thing is, I WAS STRANDED IN AYALA TERMINAL FOR TWO HOURS because the traffic condition in c5 (near The Fort) was *GRRRRR*. The FXs and the jeepneys were also stranded in that area, thus they can't go back to the Ayala Terminal. Therefore (LOL), I had to wait until forever. Due to my idiocy, I did not think of taking an MRT ride instead, an idea which came to me only after two hours of hunger, thirst, tiredness. GRRR. GRRRRRR.

ON THE BRIGHTER SIDE..

I went to Recto for the first time (?) with Niko! :D We looked for Zoology books that he can use for this semester. Unfortunately, we did not come up with something useful. :)) Oh well. At least we enjoyed the adventure. :p One mystery that I'd like to solve: the existence of "fake certificate and document makers" in Recto when there are lots of policemen roaming around the place. O_O

Failing. Reminsicing. Feeling Down.

2007-10-31T12:47:00.000+08:00

Just a few days ago, while doing nothing, I realized.. it's been ages since the last time that I really wrote. Writing has always been my passion. Not just writing poems, but writing in general. I WAS a writer. And lately, I've been disturbed by the thought that I am not the writer that I used to be anymore.

When I was in grade school, I had written articles for the grade school organ, The PCS Gazette. Maybe that's what triggered my passion, being given the opportunity to write. True, I didn't make the head stories. There weren't editors (our adviser functioned as the editor) while we, the staffers, wrote the stories. I still remember the meetings we had, talking about our assignments, skipping class just to be at our assigned event. It was all fun because writing wasn't something that we took so seriously. We weren't too conscious about our grammar. All we had to do was write about the event, give the article to our adviser, and the next thing we know, our articles are published. Aside from writing for the newsletter, I also joined various writing contests which honed my interest in writing more.

High school was different. It was already in high school when I become exposed to the "real" writing, specifically, writing for newspapers and all activities that concerns it. Whenever we would be asked to write articles, I would gladly write (unless of course when I'm not in the mood). My classmates and friends would think highly of my works, which boosted my confidence. I believed in my "talent".

When I was in my fourth year, I had my taste of glory, which sadly ended so quickly. I was given the position as the editor-in-chief of the newspaper of our school. I was hella glad and ecstatic. I can write, people believed in me, I had the title. What more can I ask for then? Really, I should have asked for the title to remain with me. Because it did not because of some stupid reasons, some stupid weather, and some stupid people. But that would be another story.

I resigned. I knew my mom wanted me to resign because of that incident (where she almost sued our newspaper adviser), but I did not want to hear it from her, so I resigned even before she told me so.

I never thought that my glory would end so soon. I didn't have the taste of "real presswork" then. It was heartbreaking.

Since then, I rarely wrote. I wrote only for our journalism classes. I wrote only when I had to. Only when I was asked to. Even my blog entries became mediocre. I didn't write anymore the way that I used to.

As I was thinking about these things, the thought that I failed my passion in writing dawned on me. I FAILED MY PASSION IN WRITING. I just wish I didn't. That one thing that used to make me so happy. I failed it.

If you will read this article again, you would realize that this blog entry is yet another average blog entry that could have been written by other bloggers. You see, I am not extraordinary anymore when I write. I am just another blogger who writes so ordinarily that you couldn't identify that it is me who is writing. I don't have an identity in the writing world anymore.

Another spotlight lost.

Steering Back to Old Path

2007-10-25T10:27:00.000+08:00

The title says it all. :)

Okay. Ang gulo ko. I've FINALLY (as in super finally) decided to pursue Advertising Arts. Basta. I'm already enrolled. Kaya final na talaga. :))

It's been a while (2-3 weeks?), yet nothing much happened in my life. First semester is over. I've learned so much from my first 4 months of college. But to sum them up: 1.) NEVER EVER procrastinate. 2.) Iwas sa tukso. 3.) Being plastic is not bad if it's the only choice you have to survive. :)) Thankfully, I was able to complete all the requirements in my subjects (except for PE hahaha). I got a GWA of 1.64! Yayy! :D

Second semester is less than two weeks away, and honestly, I'm not excited about it. x_x I don't want to go to school yet! *cries* I mean, who does? Ay. Meron pala. Hehe.

So. What will happen to my ultimate aspirations? I do not know yet. 8| Just.. wish me luck.

Another Path

2007-10-09T16:04:00.000+08:00

I already made a decision to shift from Bachelor of Fine Arts Major in Advertising Arts to Bachelor of Arts major in Communication Arts in UST (or Organizational Communication kung sa UP). After reading the descriptions of the courses that I consider, I came to the conclusion that Communication Arts is really the course for me. :) It also has advertising, but more on the marketing aspect. Actually, akala ko yun yung inooffer ng course ko ngayon. Stupidity striked eh. Fine arts nga diba, tapos ako shunga shunga na nag-expect na puro concepts.

Another reason why I decided to shift to CommArts is that I can take few units of education so I can teach English! And it's also a pre-law course.Diba nga, my lifetime aspiration is to be an English teacher and a lawyer at the same time. :) Yes, MissD, if ever you get to read this, please know that you inspire me. :)

If I'll be able to transfer, I'll be on my way to my dream. :) Wish me luck!

What Can I Do?

2007-10-07T20:31:00.000+08:00

Amidst everything that's happening in my life right now, I stop and try to imagine if things would have a 180 degree turn for good. Yun bang I won't see the bad side of my life anymore. I try to work on my problems, but I just get hurt and frustrated in the end. Kaya as much as possible, I have decided, go with the flow na lang ako. If I can do something about it, edi I'll do it. Kung wala naman talaga, bahala na. What can I do nga naman, wala nga.

Maybe Niko's right. Maybe it's time for me to make "mature" decisions. By myself. Be independent. War of heart and mind. The mind SHOULD prevail. But am I really that kind of person? I don't think I am not that independent yet. I am an emotional person. I don't know, pero minsan naman, I "know" when to use my mind. But then.. when it comes to things that concern my "heart", nagiging tanga yata ako. I hope I'll be independent and matured enough. Soon. Because I have many big decisions to make regarding my life, my future. Kung kaya ko naman, why not. I'm trying naman.

Everything is just a matter of choice? Ewan ko. I used to believe in this, but now, I don't know. Siguro, minsan. It's easier that way. And it's hard when things come when you don't want them to. And usually, they come unexpectedly, causing you to be hit hard.

What can I do? I don't know.

Spilling Out Everything I Feel In Words.

2007-10-01T19:40:00.000+08:00

WARNING: BAD WORDS AHEAD. IF YOU DON'T REALLY CARE FOR ME, DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME READING THIS. TATAAS LANG KILAY MO AT IISIPAN MO LANG AKO NG KUNG ANO ANO.

Background Music: So Far Away by Bamboo.

FRUSTRATED. *punches face* *bangs head at the wall* *insert bad word here* *insert another bad word here* *insert all bad words here without pause*

ANDAMING PLATES AMP. I don't know how our Math professor was able to sleep last friday when I've been cursing him all night. HE GAVE US TWO PROJECTS: A POWERPOINT PRESENTATION and FRACTAL ART. Ampota talaga! *GRRRRRR* BAKIT KELANGAN PA MAGPAGAWA NG FRACTAL ART?! HINDI KAYA NYA ALAM NA WE HAVE TONS OF PLATES TO WORK ON, TAPOS DADAGDAG PA SYA? PAKSHET.

ISA PA YUNG FILIPINO. Storybook for kids. Yep, that's our finals project. I was like, WHAT THE FUCK?! No, not the book cover only, but the WHOLE BOOK, from the book cover to the story to the illustrations. WTF *raised to the NTH power*.

I'M BADLY IN NEED OF SOMEONE (read: NIKO). He's there for me. As a friend. Not as a BEST FRIEND. But a PLAIN FRIEND. And I'm so fucking irritated with myself because even if I know I SHOULD NOT DEMAND FOR ANYTHING, I STILL DO. *punch face* *insert bad word here* Niko, if ever you get to read this, here's the best reason I can give you why I'm like this. I'M USED TO HAVING YOU BY MY SIDE WHENEVER I'M IN NEED AND I'M USED TO BEING TREATED LIKE A PRINCESS WHEN YOU KNOW THAT I'M IN PAIN. You used to talk to me until I become happy. You won't put the phone down unless I feel a lot better. Now, it's not like that anymore and I'm really not used to what's happening now. I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU CAN'T BE LIKE THAT ANYMORE AND THAT I SHOULD NOT DEMAND ANYTHING FROM YOU ANYMORE BECAUSE WE'RE NOT COMMITTED.

"They are my classmates and they deserve more time than you do, and that's a fact that you have to accept. THEY ARE MY BEST FRIENDS NOW."

TAGOS HANGGANG BACKBONE. Who's my bestestest friend now? NO ONE. Sweet. Really. I do not know why he'll get "pressured" and "stressed" if he spend some time on me talking over the phone. O_O REALLY. AND I DO NOT SEE WHY THEY DESERVE MORE TIME THAN I DO. HE SPENDS HIS DAY WITH THEM. THEY ARE NOT DESPERATELY IN NEED OF YOU. THEY DO NOT HAVE TONS OF PLATES TO WORRY ABOUT. AND HERE I AM, PATHETICALLY AND DESPERATELY IN NEED OF YOU, YET YOU DON'T THINK I DESERVE YOUR TIME. *SOB* Note to Niko: I hope you'll understand what I feel. Do not take this negatively, please. :'c*

I call you every night because you give me the energy to move on to another day. Because I consume all the energy I have in a day because of all the problems I have. Yet, as we go along our conversation, something will go wrong and I END UP FEELING TEN TIMES WORSE. :'((

BLOCKMATES. Only a couple of my blockmates know my hatred towards my block. It isn't the block that I expected. The people in it aren't the kind of people I want to mingle with. Users. Irresponsible people. Backstabbers. Arrogant. TOO MUCH CONFIDENCE. Immature people. That's why I can't wait to get out of CFAD. USERS. Nakakagigil. Yung tipong when they are in need, I do everything I can to help them. Pero when I am in need, they (not all) are like, HINDI KO ALAM E. or dedma lang. paker ampota. *GRRRRR*. Kaya nga I'd rather be alone during lunch times or vacant times than be with them. >.< So what if they think I'm a loner or a loser. At least hindi ako USER. leche.

Pakiramdam ko basahan lang ako. :'c I lost my pride. I lost the "confidence" I used to have. I lost my spotlight. I allow people to look down on me. I allow people to call me anything they want. I allow people to tell me painful words. I lost almost everything I have.

Now tell me, where do I go from here?

If I could only work this life out my way
I’d rather spend it bein’ close to you..

Shitting to Shifting

2007-10-01T05:59:00.000+08:00

Ipopost ko sana dito yung picture ng listahan ko ng mga gagawin. Kaso. Ewan. =))

Right now, I'm trying to think of ways of how I will be able to finish all the stuff that I have to do (12 plus yung iba divided into 4 pa) in ONE WEEK. Kaya naman e.. Basta ba hindi ako matutulog. I cry whenever I think of my responsibilities because I know I have to do them and there is no way out.

Wait, there is.

I'm shifting next school year either to UP Manila or UST pa rin. I realized that Fine Arts is not really the course for me. I'm enjoying the course naman, but my body cannot take anymore the sleepless nights. My health is deteriorating na. I'm starting to have head aches and body pains. If I continue taking this course for the next three years (or one at least), I'll be in the hospital na every week.

I MIGHT take Social Science or Behavioral Science in UP Manila or Mass Communication or Political Science or Journalism in UST. Basta. I will take a pre-law course. :D If I will be able to, I will finally be on my way to my lifetime aspiration, which is to be a teacher and a lawyer at the same time. :) -Ms D., ikaw ba itech? ahaha.- Next sem, I will take minor subjects only just to complete 33 units (requred number of units sa pagtransfer to UP).

I do not know what will happen to me but two things are for sure: 1.) I will definitely leave my life as a Fine Arts student na, and 2.) I will not be an out-of-school youth. :D

But for the mean time, I have to do all the 12 things (and more) that I have on my list. No escape. TWO WEEKS. I can still have two weeks of sleepless nights and then I'll be sleeping for the whole sem break. =))

Batch Reunion = Blast!

2007-09-28T16:59:00.000+08:00

Cheerdance competition sa Maksci. :D Okay lang. It was obvious that the batches (except perhaps the seniors) were not able to fully prepare.. Their routines and stunts and all were.. *sigh*. Sayang. It's in the rules kasi na choreographers na outsiders are not allowed, meaning the squads have to prepare everything on their own. Ayun.

RANKING: Seniors, Sophomores, Freshmen, Juniors.

Many of my batchmates came, some stayed only for the morning, some for the evening, and some staye the whole day. I know this is nonsense, but I'd like to enumerate the names of those who came (those that I remember, at least).

Lehi, Chrisanto, Danielle, Loren, Teresa, Marieson, Samantha, Joan, Zandra, Lea, Kim, Abhie, Paul, Carljoy, Jerome, Ilonah, Baby, Michael, Alix, Maray, Joshua, Pen, Fermin, Marc, Adrian, Gicel, Precious, Benette, Aia, Sarah, Donna, Kai, Blessy, Katrisha, Jasmine, Joseph, Jay-ar, Kenneth, Andy, Lorraine D., Cielo, Ernestine, Karen, Marife, Japaul, Sheryline, Martin, MJ, Melvin, Raymund, Lorraine C., Junco.

If you came but your name isn't the list, sorry. Nalimutan ko. :D

Our batch reunion in Maksci was definitely a blast! Laugh trip, stories, pictures (I wish I have some pics to show you), and more! Yung mga hindi nakapunta dyan *ehem, tamaan na dapat tamaan*, mainggit na lang. haha. :p

Saya. :D

Hell.

2007-09-27T00:38:00.000+08:00

Hell week came to us too early.

It's the last week of September and our block is not getting enough sleep because of unending plates. Some do no even sleep anymore. This time, CRAMMING is not the reason anymore but the QUANTITY of plates given to us. Can we complain? No. Because this is the REAL life of a Fine Arts student. Considering the six drawing subjects that we have, we are not really expecting our course to be easy, but we did not know that it is this hard.

Just the other night, I was crying hard because of the burden this course has given me. No sleep. More plates. Lack of time to do everything. Buti na lang anjan si Niko. Kundi, kita nyo na ako sa Quiapo naglalakad mag-isa at kinakausap ang sarili. More and more plates are coming up. Not only regular plates but also the finals plates. Oh dear.

:c

Saturday Lalalalove!

2007-09-23T09:11:00.000+08:00

Niko fetched me from school yesterday and we went to Glorietta to have dinner with his family (which wasn't really our plan). *nahihiya ako. i felt like it was the first time that i'm going to meet them.* yheeee. :D WAAA. I missed Niko so much. n__n

Should we take things slow? Everything is all right for me as long as you are by my side.. :)

I got a smashing 1.25 for the first half of this semester in English. Yihaaa. I'm pretty sure I'm going to get a good grade again for the rest of the sem. Haha la lang. xD

On the dark side, I have six plates to work on this weekend (one of the six is divided into four pa T_T). I already made up my mind to finish at least 4 of them today until tomorrow so I'll be able to get normal sleep during weekdays. Wish me luck.

More on the dark side. Final exams are coming up on the 2nd week of October. Ang bilis ng panahon grabe. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE SEMESTRAL BREAK! (who can?) I need lots of rest. Gaahhddd.

EXTRA: Here's something I received from someone:

"What is 400 years of 'existence' compared to 100 years of 'excellence'?"

HAHA. Who says the University of Santo Tomas isn't one of the top universities in the Philippines/Asia/World? We may not be on the TOP in terms of ACADEMIC EXCELLENCE but WE ARE ALMOST THERE. We may lose the TOP SPOT in terms of EXCELLENCE in SPORTS but WE WILL HAVE IT AGAIN NEXT SEASON. Eh kayo? Nasan kayo sa sports? :)
Gantihan lang yan. MATAMAAN SAPUL *toinks!* xD

War of Hands and Minds

2007-09-20T17:51:00.000+08:00

I'm soooooo tired doing my plates. My mind says "work work work!". My hands say "play rest play rest!" LOL =)) If the mind says "yes" but the hands says "no", the hand will still prevail because the mind cannot draw, the hand can. =)) WTF AM I SAYING HERE.

2 weeks left before the semestral break. YEY! But we can't escape the dreaded Finals. O_O Oh shit.

When Excitement Overdominates A Person..

2007-09-20T17:09:00.000+08:00

What's with UST? BAKIT UST LANG ANG TINITIRA NG UP?

That is what I've been asking myself since the Cheerdance Competition concluded. Right after the competition, I've been receiving text messages/friendster comments and reading comments on others' pages and blog entries about how UST is being taunted by some UP students. Like, WHAT THE FUCK? Does your over-excitement about your win in the cheerdance competition explain all these? Of course, we are aware that the dance that the UP Pep Squad prepared REALLY ROCKED. BUT WHY ALL THESE INSULTS AND STUPID COMMENTS? Bakit UST lang? Talo din naman ang Ateneo and La Salle and Adamson, etc etc. Bakit UST LANG?

O_O

44TH. :D

2007-09-19T03:31:00.000+08:00

Eighteen.

Yesterday was the eighteenth of September which marked our 44th month anniversary. :D YEYYY. ♥ Happy 44th Niko. *hugs*

Yesterday was also my Animal Day. I was in UST's Botanical Garden yesterday afternoon (that is where we hold our Freehand Drawing classes). FYI, there are monkeys and turtles and birds and looooots of plants -duh- there. Ayun, I fed a monkey and played with the turtles. Weeee. Saya! n___n Pag magbibigay ka ng food dun sa monkey, it would really stretch out its hand to reach for the food that you're giving. Parang tao lang e. Yheee. ANG CUUUUUTE! *giggles*

BTW. My plate in freehand drawing (which I started drawing the night before the submission) got 1.5! YEYY! :D Wala lang, masaya lang ako. Yheee.

Medyo naiinis na ako sa mga kabatch ko na wala nang ibang ginawa kundi magyabang at mang-away sa UST dahil sa pagkapanalo nila sa cheerdance. WTF. O_o

Nice One. :)

2007-09-17T07:19:00.000+08:00

UNIBERSIDAD NG PILIPINAS! UNIBERSIDAD NG PILIPINAS! MATATAPANG, MATATALINO! WALANG TAKOT KAHIT KANINO..

AY. WRONG CHEER.

GO USTEEEE! GO USTEEEE! GO USTEEEEE! GO GO GO GO!

Ayun. Talo. =)) Nahhh. We did not gain the championship title, but we still won the 2nd place! Not so bad at all, it's even more than what I expected. I thought UST will not have a place this year, or gain the 3rd place. UP really rocked, as in! Before the annoucement of winners, here was my list:

1. UP
2. UE
3. AdU/UST

But it turned out to be:

1. University of the Philippines Pep Squad - 92.66%
2. University of Santo Tomas Salinggawi Dance Troupe - 92. 16%
3. Far Eastern University - 91.66%

Konti lang lamang ng mga winners sa isa't isa. Amazing. n__n All the universities did well.. except for a few. :D (LOL)

I cannot blame the UP students if they are very happy about the results of the competition; afterall, it's their only win this UAAP season (lol). :))

Here's a forwarded message that I received N times right after the competition:

"TRAFFIC ALERT: huwag dumaan sa España dahil bumabaha.. bumabaha ng luha."

LOL. I know why. It's because the Thomasian community is really expecting it's 6th championship in a row, and the other universities were aware of our high expectation. That's why when it was announced that UST gained the 2nd place, they were also aware of how disappointed and sad we are. But we have to look at the brighter side! At least we're the second, and the dance troupe really REALLY did well (although I have to agree that their costumes made them look like queen bees). Nice one, Gawi. Very nice, indeed. :)

The Araneta Coliseum was expectedly crowded. O_O And very LOUD too. Hours before the competition started, there was a small competition (though not official) between the drummers of the universities. Sobrang sakeeet sa ulo! There were even instances when they would play all at the same time. O_O But it was fun, seeing the people's excitement.

Yep. UAAP Cheerdance Competition Season was definitely great. Can't wait for the next one. :)

*I'm inlove with Adamson University's Merry Go Round Stunt. xD

GO USTEEE! :D

Thank you for being with me, Niko. :) *hug*

FKKGGG. UAAP-CDC TOMORROW!! xD

2007-09-15T20:00:00.000+08:00

OMGGGG THE UAAP CHEERDANCE COMPETITION KICKS OFF TOMORROW!! xD I AM SO FKKIN EXCITEEEED!

Catch: Niko and I got only General Admission tickets from Kiko. We bought 5 GenAd tickets from Kiko and 1 GenAd and 1 Upperbox B from Sheryline. Since we weren't able to find another Upperbox B ticket, we just sold it to Ingrid, Niko's blockmate. Three of the GenAd tickets that we had were sold to LA (another blockmate of Niko). So we still have a spare ticket. xD Who wants it?? :D

The other day (Sept 14) I, Niko and some of his blockmates (Kelvin, Hadji, Joshua, Mariel(le?), Isai, Steph, Pam, LA and others whose names I cannot remember haha) went to Gateway in Cubao to.. eat. And watch a movie, although only a few stayed to watch. We watched Lindsay Lohan's I Know Who Killed Me. I thought it was a usual Lohan's chic flick, but it turned out to be a suspense movie. LOL.

And oh, that day is also the first day that I get to take a ride in LRT 2. =)) Kahiya amp! Haha!

Ayun. Thanks, I had a great time. :D

I just wish I also have blockmates like them. (...)

ANYWAY. (lol). GO USTEEEE. GO USTEEEEE. GO USTEEEEE! I'm kinda sure we'll have the title again. If we win, this will be our 6th win in a row! YEAHH BOYY!! xD

Slowing Down and Getting Things Straight

2007-09-12T15:27:00.000+08:00

I'm kind of slowing down now not because I have less stuff to do, but because I have to! While working on my Design and Color plate this morning (btw, it turned out really good.. err.. for me. xD), I realized that if I continue doing what I'm doing with my life as a Fine Arts student, I may find myself one day in a hospital, worse, on the floor, motionless. :)) I'm so healthy pa naman. Hahaha. xD I have to make things right for me. I made a list on my mind of the things I should and should not do.

DO NOT PROCRASTINATE. That is too broad, isn't it?
Do plates the day it is given, so that less work will be required during weekends.
If there are vacant times, do the other plates (even the ones due next week or whenever).
LESSEN PLAYING THE SIMS 2 AND WATCHING HEROES AND SURFING THE NET (friendster -ing and multiply -ing LOL).
Plates first before The Sims2 because The Sims2 brings eyebags! Hahahaha. xD
Eat three times a day.
Take vitamins. My gosh, God knows how much I need this. I think I'm going to faint sometime soon.
Take rests. And enough sleep.

That's it. AND I HAVE TO DO THESE. If I don't follow these, you'd probably be visiting me in Makati Medical Center soon. Don't you worry, I'm going to invite you all. xD

Oh right. My mom is waiting for me outside the library. I'm going home. Yay!

*I made this post inside the library -library computers don't allow Friendster, Multiply, etc. So I'm going to publish this in Multiply at home. xD

*I'm now blogging in my Multiply and I'm enabling cross-blogging to Blogger so both will be updated.

Wasted But Happy and Excited. WTF.

2007-09-11T18:21:00.000+08:00

Tonight is going to be the second night this week that I'm not going to have a proper sleep (READ: proper sleep for me is 6 hours) because as usual, I'm rushing a plate for Design and Color. I expect this to be pretty easy.. Sana nga. xD I'm soooo sleepy, but I can't leave my plate undone. Nanganganib ako sa DC. Fekkk.

Okay. Niko and I are looking for tickets for the UAAP Cheerdance Competition. Kasi ganito yun. I asked Sheryline to buy 2 tickets for us. I told Niko that I asked her to buy tix for us, but he told me that he already asked someone else to buy. So I told She not to buy anymore. Eto ngayon. Wala. Sold out na rin pala yun ticket. The person that Niko asked to buy tickets for us was not able to avail tickets because.. *drumrolls* sold out na. O_O So eto, we are in hunt for UAAP-CDC tickets.

OMG I really hope meron pa. I'm so excited eh. We (Niko and I) really want to waaaatch. xD

OKAY. I'm off to do my plate. Wish me luck.

QUICKIE ulet. XD

2007-09-10T11:25:00.000+08:00

I'm rushing plates right now. Anatomy plate (muscles. skeleton. cylinder). Freedhand Drawing plate (engraved cherubin -arch of the century). Design and Color plate (watercolored flower arrangement). Lettering plate (tracing). Mechanical Drawing plate (3D figures).

Thank you very much professors. I'm going to be in jail soon because I'm going to kill you all! BWAHAHAHA. xD

WTF. I'm insane!

WTF. I'm SO Effin Lazy.

2007-09-09T21:57:00.000+08:00

Plates! Plates! More plates!

O_O I haven't done a single plate. WTF. I'm inspired okaaay. But.. I want to other things ehhh.. hahaha! Anyway. I'm going to make this short. Niko and I and his blockmates are going to watch the UAAP Cheerdance Competition next Sunday at the Araneta Coliseum. First time! (kahiya amp.)

Okay. See yaaa. n_~

OMFG NIKO I LOVE YOUUUUU! n____n

And yea, Riel, Pot and Kim (he's a guy okaay) are planning to make a band and I'm gonna be their vocalist! Yeaah! n_n Okay. Bye. Haha.

^_~

2007-09-06T20:37:00.000+08:00

GOD always has the way of making things all right for us.. :)

The past days may have been too rough for me (sleepless nights, frustrations, etc.), but all of those were swept away by Niko.. WA. I can't put into words just how happy I am.. Probably, Niko's the only one who knows how much.. :p Yeaa. n_~

NO. We're not "us" again, we're somewhere better than that. Well, that's how I put it. :D

I don't have a reason to stay up so late tonight, so I better catch up on some sleeeeep. z_z

BREAKING DOWN.

2007-09-04T13:13:00.000+08:00

OMFG. I am totally frustrated right now. No, this is not another love life breakdown. This is not about Niko. It's about me. I feel so fucking frustrated and irritated and unbelievably LAZY.

This started last night. I don't want to eat. I don't want to do my plates. I don't want to do anything. I don't want to move. And I DON'T KNOW WHY. This is so fucking frustrating!!

I've tried to do my DC prelims plate last night. I can't get the right mix of colors. That's for the poster color. So I tried to do the one for watercolor. And voila! My Prangs is nowhere to be found. It's with kuya maqui pala. OMFGGG. That's why I skipped school today. I did not want to go to school. And I don't want to go to school anymore. I feel like I've chosen the wrong course. Why can't I just do memorizing stuff and answer test papers? I'll do better wath that. I feel like I'm trying too hard to fit in, to be an "artist", when I CAN'T DO IT. No wait, I DON'T WANT TO DO IT.

I've been crying since this morning, and it's not doing any good. I know I should not waste time and that I should do the things that I should do, but my body just do not want to. I really think I'm insane. Screws loose. I think I've gone crazy.

And no one's there for me, just when I need one.

OMGG. I don't want to go to school anymore. I don't want to do anything anymore. :((

Heroes Mania

2007-09-03T17:30:00.000+08:00

I'm so totally addicted, no, obsessed with Heroes, a series about, well, heroes. Hahaha! The second season is coming up this late September and I have to finish the first season before the second one starts. Oh my. Yet, I have plates on my way to finish. Omg omg. What should I do?!

Haha. Okay, I sound totally insane here. Gotta go. :))

Niko. Yhee. I'm so inlove. n_~

Horror Daw.

2007-09-02T13:41:00.000+08:00

It was the first of September yesterday. I did not notice. How could time fly so fast? The first -ber month is here, I can almost smell Christmas! No, I can almost smell money! Hahaha. :p

While typing this blog and thinking of something to blog about, I can hear my brother watching Kris Aquino's "Feng Shui" on TV. It is supposed to be a horror movie. But why is it not scary at all? It's even.. funny. Hell. I've watched a couple of Pinoy-made horror movies and read lots of critic reviews, and I came to this very inspiring conclusion: PINOY-MADE HORROR MOVIES SUCK. LIKE BIG TIME. Yea, agree? Hahaha! Well, I believe that the corrupt government affects everything, even our horror movies. I can't explain it, it will be a looong story. Haha. Going back to the horror movies. The effects are definitely fantastic (read: fantastically horrible, no, funny.). From the plot to the cinematography, oh dear, I just wish they'll change the genre from horror to comedy. The supposed-to-be scary scenes are too predictable that you'll know that something will suddenly appear, may it be a bloody baby or a white hilarious lady or a bloody monster that obviously LOOKS like a stupid doll or something.

Will Filipinos ever be able to match the quality of Japanese or Chinese or even just American-made horror movies?

Anyway. HEROES is definitely ADDICTING. OMFG. Go watch it. >:)

Art is Life

2007-09-01T20:25:00.000+08:00

My days are simply wonderful.. :)

Down times are, of course, inevitable. I have a few reasons to be down but they are not enough, or should I say, not worth giving attention to, because my once grayscale life has been colorfully painted once again by Niko. :)

Earlier, I had a chat with Lea, and I was telling her how happy I am to be spending time again with Niko. I was like, "I really love him." And while I was typing these words, I had tears in my eyes! Dramatic as it may seem (haha), but I almost cried, not because I'm having the dark days again, but because I am happy, truly happy.

Sabi ko nga kay Lea, I never thought I would be like this. I mean, if you only knew the bad old days, you would never imagine that I'd be like this. After all the shit that we've been through, I never thought that I would be like this towards him. I never thought that I would go all through those days filled with depression. If you only knew the "old" me (about Niko), you would think that I was not really inlove. You would think that I was such a stupid fucking selfish girl friend who always had silly fights with Niko. I know. Maybe it's because I had too much faith that whatever I do to him, he would stay with me. And now, KARMA.

I've learned so many things because of everything that happened and happens to us. I realized how important and valuable he is to me. I realized that he does not deserve being treated the way I used to treat him. I realized that Niko is Niko, the man (he's not a boy anymore. n_n) who deserves all the happiness in the world. :)

BTW. We are not in a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship, as I have always explained. But we are in a best best best friends relationship, and we are enjoying every single moment t0gether. :)

OTHER STUFF:

I did not do the modelling stuff last Friday, because Cathy (our beautiful and ever responsible president) needed the model (who was me) because she was having a hard time fixing the dress, but I went home early, I did not attend my Mechanical drawing class because I was really put down by my prelims grade in Lettering. Aislin became the model, instead. At first, I felt a little bad, but I understood naman, and I don't feel bad anymore. :)

I'm inspired to do artworks. I mean, artworks that are not required by the course that I am takiking. This afternoon, Potpot and I went to Marikina Shoe Expo where several art galleries and vintage shops are located. I swear I want to live there, I want to spend my every day doing paintings and artworks and going over old pictures and reading old books and watching old movies and marvelling about the past, about history.

Life is full of art. :) A priest once said to me during a confession, "Art is just like life; it depends on how you will color it, how you choose the colors and media to be used, how you strive to make it beautiful, a wonderful piece of art, a masterpiece." :)

Good Things Finally Came

2007-08-30T04:56:00.000+08:00

Things have been going really good lately. :)

Prelims almost over. Just one left! And I think I'll have good grades. n_n I didn't sleep last night just to finish my prelims plate in Design and Color but my work was still a mess. Good thing (thank God!) the deadline is extended! YAYNESS!

I'm going to represent our block in a fashion show of Filipinianas. Wish me luck. :D

Niko. OMG. YHEEEEE. Niko. *giggles* Okay, Lots of people have been asking if we were together again *background music please*. The answer is NO, but. BUT. Things have been really going nice.. :) We've been meeting a lot for the past weeks which really REALLY makes me happy. But I don't think we should meet that often because I also want him to spend lots of time with his blockmates and friends. And of course, study. :) And besides, I want him to miss me. hahahaha. Kiddin. :p

I think I'm inlove. Err. As always. :p

I'm currently addicted to the both versions of "Beautiful Girls" by Sean Kingston and Jojo. Lol. :D

HABOL:
Tinatamad na ako sa Lettering. Ang baba ng grade ko sa prelims plate. :c

Quickie. Hihi.

2007-08-24T22:36:00.000+08:00

What a day.

They (basta sila na yun) finally got into my nerves. Too much irresponsibility really pisses me off. I don't really want to spend my time with them anymore, seriously speaking. I don't really like being around such irresponsible persons. O_O

On the brighter side, Niko and I met again today, and I was finally able to give him my gift (a Design and Color plate). And he gave me a compilation of nice songs. Hihi. While walking on our way to the MRT station, we spotted our former batch mates who were going to MakSci (former school). We decided to go too, it's been quite a while since we last went there. We took an almost 30-minute MRT ride from Quezon Ave to Guadalupe. The funny (and shameful) thing is that the card given to me had no print on it, so I had no idea how to insert the card into the machine. I was already panicking because the card won't really get in the machine! Hahah! My batch mates and I laughed at my stupidity and I was like, "Walang arrow eh!" Hahahaha!

Maksci is still.. Maksci. We didn't really notice the changes, probably because we went there around 5:30 and it was already their dismissal. I miss the school. :D

Niko <3. n__n Things are kinda complicated right now, but who the hell cares. What's important to me is that he is happy. And I'm happy because I AM happy while he is also happy. :D Happy! Yheee. :D

Stupid MRT tickets. All of them should have an arrow pointing the right direction on how the card should be inserted. :))

Randommm!

2007-08-23T20:50:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG I'm so happy. For the past week, I've been so happy. And I guess I don't have to tell you anymore why. :D NIKO! <3

Prelims. Prelims Prelims. It's almost over. No. It's halfway over. Darn. If I were to choose between doing plates and studying and answering exams, I'd choose the latter. O_O I miss studying notes and memorizing stuff; we have minimal stuff to memorize. :c I, coming from a science high school, am already used to (endless) memorizations. We are, well, well-trained in memorizing useless things. Too bad, those stupid trainings are not of use now (grammar?! haha).

Oh, so I was talking about prelims. Haha! What the fuck. Prelims. I hope they'll be over soon! My health is deteriorating; I just had slight fever two nights ago. And I felt weak. Oh dear. I hate getting sick. :c Especially now that no one's there to cure me anymore. :c

MRT RIDE

It's my first time to go home from school through MRT. Yey! And with Niko! More yey! Hahaha. :) But I don't think I'll always take that routine because my dismissal time is 5:00 and that is already the start of rush hours. I don't want to get stuck in a train full of sweating people. Ew. Maybe if we are dismissed early, I'll take that route. I can't say it's more convenient because I have to take lotsa walks. O_O Oh well. Whatever.

Niko. ILU. :D Hihihi. *giggles*

Oh Egay. Egay. Egay.

2007-08-19T20:46:00.000+08:00

"You make me happy again Nika. :"> "

I do? He said I do. You can tell how happy I am to get that from him. :)

The weather is pretty much becoming my ally now. For the past two weeks, it has become my savior. We are required to submit our prelims plates last week but because of the "great" weather, classes are suspended (for N days). Thus, the deadlines are moved which is good, because I've been having a hard time finishing all of them because of my stupid laziness. I hate being lazy, but I just can't help but be lazy. I hate me. :c

Anyway. I know should not be really glad about these typhoons and hard rains, because families from other regions are suffering. If only I can do something for them, I would. But these are Mother Nature's will. Humans can do nothing but watch everything happen. :c

If men and women are created equal..

Then women courting men should be accepted, right? What is courting ba? For me, it is just the process of showing who you really are (or to some, showing your good side). Getting-to-know-each-other period. Proving that you're worth giving love to. So what's so wrong having the girls do it? We're not in Maria Clara's generation anymore. Actually, women are doing things worse things than courting.

Anyway. I have to give a try. :D

I Love The Warmth

2007-08-18T15:01:00.000+08:00

It's a warm feeling knowing that the arms of your love are around you during a cold and stormy night.. :)

It's a warm feeling giving your heart and being appreciated by the one you love.. It's not always about commitment. It's about how much you love, how much you can give to that special person, even if he does not give the same love that you have. It's about how true that "love" is inside your heart. It's about giving without taking, falling free without demanding for someone to catch you, bruising yourself and still smiling. It's about feeling content and making the most out of everything that remains.

Loving is not about being loved back. It's about selflessly giving your heart to a special person, not expecting anything in return.

Love is Niko. :)

Funny how I realize this just now. :p

Another Wavy Day For Me

2007-08-16T19:58:00.001+08:00

Am I not worth falling for?

A t least we're friends, best of friends. At least I get to talk to him every once in a while. At least I get to hear his voice before I sleep. At least I get to tell him everything that I feel. At least I know (or think) he cares for me. At least.. Oh well.

Thank you for everything Niko. You don't how much I appreciate you. :)

Anyway. Niko dropped by this night, and I'm just soooooooo happy! *giggles* Weee. Thanks Niko. :D I so missed him. So so so missed him.

A Load Almost Off My Shoulders

2007-08-14T23:37:00.000+08:00

Last night was a really tough night for me, too tough that I felt the need to blog about every thought that I had. I actually had to sneak down to my computer (I'm not allowed to use the computer late at night) only to realize that I cannot put into words all my thoughts. I found myself staring at the blank "create post" box for about 15 minutes, and encoding nothing. Now the good thing here is that I got the chance to talk to him this night and told him everything that's swimming inside my head. And I felt light, I felt like a huge chunk of rock has just been lifted off my shoulders.

And I realized.. that I need to talk. To him or to my besht Icang or to anyone. Talking makes me feel free. Talking makes me feel better. We all need an outlet, and talking is one of the best for me. Crying, writing, blogging. It makes me think that I simply can not keep the pain to myself. I'm just not that type of person.

Another thing that REALLY bothers me right now is my education.

Before classes even started, I've been asking my mom if we can afford to send me to UST. She said, and has been saying yes. But after a month of stay in the university, I learned that my course is such an expensive one. Being fine arts students, we are required to buy art materials which are not that cheap, not cheap at all. And we don't buy just once, but once we run out of materials, we have to buy again.

I am aware that we are not rich, not poor either. Maybe a little above average, but what my course requires, I just don't think that we can afford everything.

Originally, I have this plan of keeping my grades up and transferring to the University of the Philippines after a year, that is, if my grades are enough. Originally I did not like the course that I am taking. Originally, I believed that I had nothing to give, I had no talent at all. But I started to enjoy it, and saw myself improving. Now I have been asking myself for weeks if I'm going to pursue my plan. I consulted my mom about this matter and she told me, it would be better if I'll be able to transfer to UP next year.

What if I don't get enough grade? I know we can still afford to send me to UST next year if ever I don't get a grade high enough to enter UP, but I'm also thinking about the years that I'm going to waste if I will have to transfer. I can try getting a scholarship for working students, but our schedule just won't let me. Oh well. The last resort I have is to stay in UST, only to take a different course.

One thing's for sure, I won't be an out-of-school youth. Haha!

Waves

2007-08-13T13:43:00.000+08:00

I feel weird today. I'm confused. I'm having emotional problems, if you call them problems. One moment, I get totally happy. The next day, I'm totally down, and then happy again, and down, and the cycle goes on. I know that's normal, but what made this weird is that it happens everyday, simultaneously. I'm so mixed up. 8

Anyway. New layout. If you're going to have a look around, everything is still messed up. But I'm going to fix it soon, hopefully later, after I have finished my prelims plates in Freehand Drawing and Lettering. My previous layout was too pink, nakakasawa sa mata.

Link exchange is open, btw. I feel like "really" entering the blogosphere again. You know, link exchange, and other mediocre blogging stuff. Haha! Peace. :p Gahd, I really want to learn more of the web standards. So much to do, so little time. Oh well. If I finally get free times, I'll have this page validated.

GO USTE! Woohoo! The University of Santo Tomas and De La Salle University are both on the second place in the UAAP Basketball Rankings. Yey! Go Tigers, beat the archers! Haha!

A Happy Day

2007-08-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

Today is totally different.

Yesterday, I was crying my eyes out because I was totally down. Now, I'm crying my eyes out because I'm so happy. :D It's weird, this feeling. It's like, I haven't felt like this for quite a long time. I've been smiling the whole day.. Well, this is good, isn't this?

Our prelims plate in Mechanical Drawing which I've been working on for a couple of days (I thought it was hard, but it's not that hard naman pala) are to be submitted next week! Almost everyone in our class crammed last night just to finish the effin plate, only to find out the next day that it would be submitted next week. Heavens! At least we have time to improve our plates. :)
I already found the missing requirement for our plate in Design and Color. :)) For the past two weeks, I've been thinking of excuses to tell our professor. Good thing I found it. Yayy. :D No need to lie. :))
Sexyback! Enough said. *giggles*
OMG OMG OMG. PARAMORE IS GOING TO HAVE A CONCERT IN THE PHILIPPINES! The moment I heard the news, I was like, OhMYYYYY!!! :D:D:D But I have to confirm the rumors yet. Omg. I'm so excited. Omg Omg Omg.! YEYYYY!! :D
Niko! ♥ ♥ I love him. :">

I hope I'll have another happy day like this. It feels so different. So good. :)

Hayy. It's so happy to be happy. n_n

I'm Insane.

2007-08-09T16:12:00.000+08:00

I do not see the reason why he cannot accept the love that I am offering him.

You see, I'm offering my whole life to him, with the assurance that things will be different this time. No more immature things. No more huge fights. No more reason to fall out of love. No more things that made him choose a different path. Everything we had, our love, they are worth giving another try.. Why can't he give us the chance? We deserve another chance. :'c

All I can do now is cry, and I'm literally weak. I'm not in the mood to do anything now, not even our prelims plate. I'm totally down and out of sanity.

Help me. Niko. :'c