I don't know anymore.

I have so many things in my mind. So many things t0 worry about. Academics. Family. And.. I can't even start to think about it. It just can't be.

Acads. Well, this is something that I shouldn't be worried about. I wouldn't fail, of course. But I knew I did not give my major subject my best shot, and it reflected in my exam results. I'm still waiting for the grade. Even if it's low, I would not be thrown out of the department. But then, I could have done something about it. If only I took it seriously. But I didn't.

My other subjects are fine. No, they are great. My major subject is the only problem.

Family. It's a secret, but I will blog about it eventually. It just needs time to ripen. I can't do anything about it anymore if it leaks or if they find out that I know something about it. Of course I do.

And the unthinkable... It can't be. And I know and hope and desperately pray that it won't happen...

I didn't know I would have these things to worry about. It pains me. It's almost killing me. I really hope they would be solved soon. SOON. I would know the outcome of these problems over the weekend, except the family stuff.

Please God.. Please help me.. Please.. :'(

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